Run Away

The break down

It was like I was letting something in something that I thought I had let go. After our little run in with the past I got back into the car. I wanted this day over. I wanted it gone...I wanted to curl up in a little ball in the corner of my bed and cry because he got ripped away from me. I wasn't ready to let go, but then again who would have been?

We were in the car listening to music, it was a nice day. I rolled down the window and stuck my arm out and ran it through the wind. I let my mind go to another place. A fantasy, where he would come back, where he would stay, where he wouldn't abandon me.
Miranda..Miranda...Miranda...Miranda!" Caleb said.

I had zoned out...as usual. I always zone out. I have too much on my mind to pay attention to bullshit.

"Yes Mr. Annoying?" I said in a snotty attitude.

" Awe, we have pet names for each other already? See Mir, I knew you would come around. I knew it."

"Shut up. What did you call my name for?"

" Your zoning out more than usual. And yes I know how often you zone out, I still watch you, I still got your back even after all thats happened."

" Can't a girl day dream?" I laughed at my comment. God I'm such a smartass... :)

I got sick of what we were listening to. I turned off the music. I took a glance at Caleb, he looked less tense today...wonder why. Usually he's this " I'm Mr. Man" type of guy. Like he's king of the freakin' world.

Him being so calm and so chipper and helpful isn't his everyday persona. It was unusual.

"What's up with you?" I asked suspiciously.

" Nothing, why?"

" Why are you being so caring and calm and like ugh?"

" I don't have to be a ladies man with you Mir, because you know the real me."

" Yea, the you that broke my heart, dumped me, lied, stole, cheated. The you that made me hate me" I mumbled under my breathe.

" I heard that." Caleb said with a smirk.

" You were meant to air head."

" Stop being so hostile with me. I'm not the guy that did those things to you anymore. And remember, you got in this car willing."

" But what happened and that you is still apart of you and what happened is still a memory. Yes I did, because I needed a ride off campus and you happened to be the lucky one that gets to drive me." I put on a fake smile and looked at him. I flipped my hair and gave a fake giggle.

We were silent for a few moments. It was 9:37 a.m. We had only ditched school an hour or two before. The sky was bright blue, clouds puffy white, cars were on the road trying to get to work, fast food joints and dinners were still serving breakfast.

It was nice out, although it was supposed to rain later. We passed by the Circle K that Ben and I had gone with some friends while walking home. That day was fun. We got drinks, went home, cuddled, pierced my ears, and went to a party later that night.

We had fun, but sad thing is that it could and would never happen again. I was told to move on by some, but by others I was told to stay. I wanted to stay but I didn't want to get hurt. Not again. We didn't break up before we left. We wanted to be together. Keep the relationship going. I loved him...he loved me. It made sense. We made sense. I couldn't let go, not now. We needed each other. without us meeting each other we would of done some really fucked up things. But us meeting stopped that. We stopped each other from hurting ourselves. From hurting others, from all the stupid shit we planned on doing before we met. We needed each other or at least I thought we did. Or at least I needed him...badly.

It sucked. Watching him walk away from me. Not like he had a choice, but come on, if your boyfriend walked away from you how would you feel? It would fucking suck ass... I'll tell you that. It's just all like...ugh and blehhh..and ahhhhh!!!! But I can't change anything. No one can.

I got out of my day dream and looked out the window. I saw a Denny's and my stomach started to rumble. I was starvimg. Caleb got out of the car and rushed to the passenger door to open my door. I smiled and nodded my head as a 'thank you'. He smirked and looked me up in down as I stood next to him. I rolled my hazel eyes and began to walk to the door, I had a feeling Caleb was looking at my fabulous ass, like always.

I shooouted from the door " I know I'm fab!"

I heard hiim laugh. He jogged to the door and open it up for me, he bowed, I curtseyed. He's being so nice, very unsual.

I smiled and walked through the door. I could smell the bacon and eggs. It smelt like breakfast heaven.

The hostes showed us to our table. She took our drink orders. I got water and Caleb got orange juice.

God I hate orange juice. Ben tried to get me to drink a whole bottle of it. ewwww. Disgusting. WAIT! Stop thinking about him! Ugh.

Caleb looked at me and smiled. I looked back and raised an eyebrow. He slid his hand across the tablw to grab mine but I immediately pulled it away. He hurt me, so bad. Plus I have Ben..and Ben only.

He gave me a look and pouted, I looked down at my hands thinking about how lonely they would be without Ben holding them. Or how abandoned they would without him giving them kisses and rubbing them when I get cold. I glanced up at Caleb, who was staring at me, studying my face like if I made one move he would know what I was hiding. I gave him a fake smile and sipped my ice water. A small ice cube escaped the cup and slid iinto my mouth, cold and hard. I crunched on it, I love chewing ice.

" I've missed you, I still love you actually, I want you." Caleb said queitly.

My stomach started to hurt. I couldn't believe he actually said that. " Caleb...I have Ben. I''m sorry. And it would take a long time for me to trust you, and look at you the same. I really am sorry." I looked at him with pitty. I felt bad, but why should he deserve me after everything he did. He noded and put his head down in what looked like guilt, shame, and dispare. The waitstess came back to get our food order. She looked like she was in her early twenties. Long straight brown hair, puppy dog brown eyes, shorter than me, and dressed sorta trashy. Boobs hanging out everywhere. I found it sad when girls dressed like this. We didn't need to have our junk hanging out. Being covered up but shwoing skin (normally dressing) is fun and exciting. And when people do get into the physial stuff its like unwrapping a Christmas present. Exciting, full of mystery, and filled with cheer. Caleb flirted with her for a while until I snapped and stated "look lady I'm hungry. Stop flirting and get my food unless you want me to tell your manager your not doing your job. Then you'll have no money for that boob job you just got done." I smiled. I could tell she was angry, but I didn't care. I just wanted to eat. By the time they would of stopped flirting, I would have died of starvation.

I had ordered chocolate chip pancakes with chocolate syrup with a side of strawberries. Caleb had ordered eggs with bacon and a orange. I would eat some of his bacon. He never seemed to mind when I took a nip at his food. I heard the bell at the door ring, signaling that someone haad come in. Of course it was the populars. Ben's little jealousy fan group.

I came to the decision to ignore them until the head of the bitch fest, Jade, tipped my water off of the table and dumped it on me. This bitch was just begging for a ass whooping. I was wondering what would go first...her fake nose or her flat ass.