"How do you feel today?"
Happy
Smile wide
Posture composed and relaxed
Pleasant demeanor
Thick fog
Dark clouds
Perfect
Grin consuming my aching face
Grin till it's permanent
Makeup will hide your blemishes
Thunder storms
Lightning crackling
Fine
Stop frowning
Stop slouching
Neutral demeanor
Keep Pretending
I can't
Ice blue rain courses through my exposed veins
"How do you feel today?"
Smile and grit your teeth
We are not admitting defeat
Fake
So put together
Flawless facade
Bury yourself and never return
Defeat
Sits heavily upon me
The fire that kindled hope
Dissipated into a pile of ashes
Defeat
Clogs my throat
Coats my cold skin
As I succumb to
Insanity
Madness
Conquers my brain
With hissing buzzing clattering
Creatures that probe my failures
Questioning my purpose
"How do you feel today?"
I am
Angry
Sad
Afraid
I am not okay
I am sick
Sick of this numbing existence
Puppet to my demons
by lying and pretending
Numbers chasing food
Round and round
My aching head
I want out
Out
Out
Out from under this confining skin
"How do you feel today?"
I'm alright
YOU ARE READING
Undone
PoesiaA hodgepodge of topics that mostly deal with mental health written as poems or prose.
