I feel as though I committed a great sin
Succeeded in a horrendous crime
7am I feel the sharp claws of hunger grip my shriveled stomach
I can't resist picking out the fat free chocolate milk
Every fiber of my being screaming no no no
Legs trembling to stay rooted in place
I want to run away before the milk comes tumbling out of the vending machine
It's amazing how an inconspicuous item such as milk could become a terrifying dream
No, a nightmare that I can't escape from
Facts spin in my head
130 cal
22 grams of sugar
I'm a failure
A despicable human being for giving in
Rationally I know that this is a great start to the beginning of the day
But in my eyes I'm disgusted that I drank so many calories in one sitting
Fuck up worthless piece of shit
The self hate has begun
Another struggle, another drop in the endless ocean made up of my torment
Breakfast is the most important meal of the day
It's what makes us into cham-pee-ons
I laugh darkly whenever I recall this quote
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Undone
PoesíaA hodgepodge of topics that mostly deal with mental health written as poems or prose.
