//TW MENTIONS OF ABUSE//
Draco's ribs protested to him walking around the school with the same posture he always walked with
with grace and his back straighter then he would ever be
he made his way to hogsmead where he found a way to the muggle realm
(Something only select kids at his school were allowed to do)
he studied the muggles almost envying their naive mindsets on magic and everything that came with it
However Dracos favorite part of going to the muggle world was seeing children. Small five year olds who would get their letters inviting them to hog warts during their teen years. He would watch as they would knock over stands they weren't even close to then giggle at the distraction
Draco continued to walk although he had de-stressed a bit and walked with his body more relaxed leaving his chest to stop screaming in pain and just complain about it passive aggressively.
He walked towards a gas station and sauntered in feeling his pocket for cash only to find he hadn't brought any muggle money. He rolled his eyes and stared at the cashier shrugging and walking up to them
"Can I have a pack of camels please?" He asked taking out the bag of galleons he had brought instead the cashier smiled and took the baggie handing Draco the pack of cigarettes and the baggie back after had taking what he needed
"Draco nodded and left with the pack in his pockets picking at the plastic wrap around it as he weaved his way through the crowd and found a way back to hogsmead where he wondered around until he found a secluded hill where he could see the shrieking shack from he laid down on the grass and stretched which he regretted after his chest felt as if it had caught on fire from pain he coughed and sighed staring up at the sky still holding the unopened box of cigarettes in his hand
This was where he used to taunt Harry's friends which he still felt terrible about
Draco smiled to himself as he watched clouds form he remembered how embarrassed he felt after he ran away from some random force that began to beat up him and his friends only to find out later on that Harry had an invisibility cloak
Draco knew what he was doing
Drowning emotions and thoughts in stupid things he stared at the box and opened it staring at the sticks of tabaco and thought of Harry recalling a conversation they had the first few days Draco was bed ridden
"Hey why are you so against me smoking it's not like it hurts you anyway" Draco seethed he was going through a terrible withdrawal and was seething at the fact whenever he thought he'd found a cigarette it would turn into a flower when it touched his lips
"It's the thought of you hurting yourself that gets me more to be honest" Harry sighed picking up flowers from the floor
"Yeah me hurting myself has nothing to do with you" Draco sighed
"That can't be the only reason" Draco stared at Harry who put all the flowers in a vase and smiled at them
"Well there is another reason" he said softly he turned to Draco and lifted his sleeve where there were small circle shapes above his elbow. Draco stared at them with a confused face and looked back at Harry who pressed his lips into a thin line
"Weird birth marks?" Draco asked and Harry laughed a little he sat on Dracos bed and let Draco look closer
"Nah they're burns" Harry said as Dracos hand hovered above them
"Burns?" Draco repeated
"Yeah. Uh, my uncle back home would smoke cigars those big brown ones you see in cartoons. And if I didn't do what he wanted he'd put them out on my arm sometimes he'd do it for fun" Harry sighed pulling his sleeve down as Draco felt a flame inside him ignite
"The cigarettes are not the problem it's the memory's they bring" Harry said shifting awkwardly
"That's why I said I wanted to try it. I wanted to know if i also smoked. If I would be able to grow past it" Harry placed his hand over his arm and turned to Draco again who furrowed his brow
"It. It didn't work" he smiled awkwardly and stared at Draco who only stared back they sat there for a few seconds before Harry stood suddenly his cheeks feeling warm
"I'll go make your bath be right back"
Draco snapped out of his thoughts with a shiver as a gust of wind blew he sat up and stared at the box still in his hand he frowned and stood clutching the box in his hand firmly and throwing it as far as he could smiling from ear to ear
Dear journal
Im not going to pretend to break up with Harry I won't run from my feelings anymore I'm going to tell him how I feel!
Love, Draco
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Dear diary. I mean journal! (A drarry fic)
FanfictionDraco felt embarrassed that he has to write in a stupid book about his emotions even more so that he was always writing about Harry Potter. Even though he always writes that he hates Harry. He knows in his heart that he's lying to himself with ev...
