Desire (chuuya x reader)

Chapter 13

So today i decided to try and write Y/N's pov with "I" not "you" because i prefer to read stories like that. I feel that it really is me. So i would really appreciate it if you tell me which you like better so i can know what to use.

Have fun with this!

Last but not least thx for the likes and the reads. It helps me continue writing and dont give this story up!

1 week has passed since me and Chuuya had shared THAT moment.

We haven't talked at all and whenever we bump into each other we avoid talking or looking. He also started to talk to me through other panthers. He stopped showing in missions too.

I dont know why this happens because i really dont think this is my fault.

He started kissing me first and if i didn't stop it god knows where it would lead!

But i guess im at fault too because i dont try to contact him. Im not emotional ready. For god's sake he was Melody's best friend! Not only this but also if i continue spending time with him he will die!

I thought of leaving the mafia and go ask help from Dazai but i cant face him either. I feel it will be akward that i also kissed him.

I dont know why but i feel like a hoe that goes around people and kisses them.

Dazai was my first kiss. I dont know how much this will effect my gift. Either way i should be careful.

Yes i dont want to kill them but i dont want to leave like this either.

Right now i got back from a mission of trying to find the guild. I have already bathed and changed into regular clothes.

I made a bun and sat down to my desk so i could start filling the pages i was given.

One good thing that happened during this one week is that i got in an even higher position. Im one step back from being an executive. I dont know how to feel about this but i guess this will clear my suspicions.

While writing i heard the door open and close, making me jump. I turned around hoping it was Chuuya but i saw Akutagawa laying in my bed.

"Akutagawa?" I said and went towards him.

He grabbed my wrist and pulled me down to lay next to him. He put his hands around my waist and held me tight into a hug.

I widen my eyes and looked at him confused because of two things. First i feel uncomfortable and want to leave but i cant thanks to Melody and second I didn't have him as the guy that likes hugs.

I looked up and saw him close his eyes. I tried to move but he kept me still.

"I know i dont usually do this but stop moving. I need you and this" he whispered, opening his eyes and looked at me.

"S-sorry" i apologize and patted his chest like buddies usually do.

Minutes later he let go of me and sat up.

"Did you and Chuuya had a fell out?" He asked and layed between my legs. He put his head on my chest and hugged my waste.

God i feel so uncomfortable like this. I dont know what Melody was thinking but i cant do something with someone when i cant stop thinking about that one person...

I wish it was Chuuya to be honest but this is for the best.

"Yea" i murmured and patted his back.

"Why dont you play with my hair like you used to? I know you have it difficult with the amnesia shit but im trying to help you remember" he scoffed and placed one of my hands in his hair.