Desire (chuuya x reader)

Chapter 24

I held chuuya by his throat and rested my head at his hard chest. It was so warm and comfortable.

"Are you planning telling the others too?" Chuuya asks out of the blue.

You nod your head while playing with his choker.

You hear him sigh and get into the infirmary taking some bandages and pills. Then he starts walking towards my room not letting you walk at all.

"You will die if you do"

"I know. But i have some information that i have for the guild and i will ask them to spare my life in order to give them." I explain looking at him.

He places me at my bed and then starts treating my injures.

"It wont be so easy. And i will have trouble too if they find out i knew" he says while trying to do his work but i see him struggle.

I take off my shirt and nod to him.

"I know its difficult with a shirt on so.." i explain looking away.

He nods and starts with the injury at your shoulder.

"Chuuya.." i whisper and he looks at me.

"What?" He asks after he sees you dont respond.

"Can we talk about that night?" I ask making him look again at my injure.

After some minutes he sighs and nods his head.

"Did it mean anything?"

"I-i don't know" he says going to treat my stomach.

I place my hand on top of his and make him look at me. I lean in towards him but he backs off making me look at him confused.

Okay that is a way of him rejecting me.

"Sorry" i sigh and look behind me at the view that i so much missed.

Chuuya finishes my stomach meaning that i need to put on my shirt. I do and then take off my pants.

He looks at me wide-eyed but i dont really care.

"Its like seeing me in a swimsuit so its okay" i lowly whisper avoiding his eye contact. I could feel my cheeks fire when he started treating my tights.

I bit my lower lip while being nervous. Okay this isnt like a swimsuit.

I mean i could do it alone but i wanted to talk to him. But it akward after he backed off from me.

"Y/n" i hear him sigh and i turn to face him.

"Hm?"

"Dont think i was drunk then. I mean i was but i wouldnt kiss someone even if drunk.. i know my place and how to deal with alcohol. Im not stupid to go around kissing people while drinking." He says not Daring to look at me.

Wait what? So does it mean..

"So that means that you wanted it?" I ask confused while blushing.

"Yes but its good that you stopped me. It was wrong" he says after some minutes of silence.

Ouch. That hurt.

I nod my head and look dissapointed down when he finishes treating me. I put on my pants and lay on my bed closing my eyes not bothering to talk to him more. I dont want to. I feel hurt.

"Chuuya" i say making a tear escape.

"Yes?" You hear him asks but you still dont open your eyes.

"Im scared" i admit opening my eyes seeing him look at me with concern.

"Of what?"

"Of being alone. What if Akutagawa told anyone and they come to kill me while sleeping or take me to torture me"