Fading Sorrow

Was it him?

Previously,

My eyes fixed at the entrance just to confirm that this evil king is not my Jihun.

Footsteps of the people getting closer, my forehead covered in sweat.

Was it him?

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I shut my eyes tight, wrinkles appearing on my eyelids due to the tightness.

"Hail to the King" I opened my eyes, everyone bowing at the figure standing in the front, far away.

I finally gathered all the courage I had left in me and looked up. My world collapsed right in front of me. It was him! I couldn't accept this, this is not true! It can't be...

He was so different, everything different. His eyes which had only love and passion are now full of hatred and repugnance. He is not the person I know! He cannot be my Jihun. I watched him walk up to his throne , his eyes did not even show an ounce of mercy. It is true that I desperately wanted to see him, but not like this. Never in a million years I wanted my lover to be someone like this. But I had to accept the fact that he is Jihun and it is never going to change. It is not going to change no matter how much I convince myself.

My problem is not him being the King but what kind of person he has become now. The loud cries of people are still ringing in my ear. I used to feel like home when I saw him but now I only have fear for him. I don't know the reason for the change in him but whatever reason it may be, he cannot take his anger out on people. Or was he this kind of person from the beginning? Was it all acting? The way he treated me.....

I felt a sting on my back, it was the guards.

"Keep your filthy eyes on the floor! " he said through his gritted teeth but I didn't dare to look down. He shot a death glare but I wasn't worried or feared about anything right at this moment.

"Please look down dear" I heard a soft, concerned voice. I looked at my side. It was an old woman, she looked at me with care and sadness. She mouthed ' please do it for me', with tears in her eyes I put my head down.

One by one all of the crimes were read out aloud. Then it was turn for me, the guard pulled me to the front.

" She is an illegal immigrant, my majesty." I didn't dare to look up now, I am still not ready to face him like this. I was impatient to hear him talk.

"Put her in the underground chamber" He said in a clear emotionless tone. I am sure he saw me, does he not remember me?

The guard pushed me to the side along with the people going underground.

The announcer continued, "This woman and kid stole bread from the feudal payment." A young mother standing with her head hung low along with her son at the side in guilt. A moment of silence prevailed.

"Behead them!" He ordered.

"Your majesty, please forgive us! I just did this because my son was dying of hunger. I beg of you please forgive us your majesty." The young mother tried to explain her helpless situation. The son crying seeing his mother cry. He was so young , his innocent eyes filled with tears. He didn't even know what was going on or why he was here..

There was no response, my eyes fixed on Jihun still believing him with the hope I had in the corner of my heart. He looked at the guard and just nodded his head. The guards started dragging the women along with her son. So stupid of me to still trust him, the little bit of hope I had disappearing completely.

" Your Majesty at least forgive my son. I beg you, please just let him live. Show us a bit of mercy. He is still young, I am the one who stole the bread." She cried out in agony desperately trying to save her son. Still the guards forcefully dragged her out.I could no longer stand what was happening.

"This is highly absurd and atrocious!" I shouted in anger, tears threatening to leave my eyes. My heart clenched seeing the kind of person my lover has become.

The guard pointed a sword straight to my neck waiting for his King's permission to chop off my head.

Will he let me die? End all my sufferings here right at this moment?