Rehab Facility

Open Road

April

On a Saturday night I am sitting here in my closet heartbroken honestly. I gave up a special gift out of hate and love at the same time. I hated Marcus for doing that to me out of jealously and wanting to keep me close to him some type of way and I did it out of love because that baby would've been born in a fucked up situation and I honestly didn't want that got him or her.

I continue to fold up my clothes placing them in bags neatly. I honestly wanted to go crazy and bleach all of his expensive clothes but I'm not because I don't even have the energy. I knew I moved to fast with him , he's a smooth talker and could've made me believe anything honestly.

But I do love this man, for what he has done I'm not even about to act like I hate him when I don't... Dammit!

How could he?

Chris

"I'm about to bring it back a little for a special lady in my life" I said looking at the crowd as they screamed. "I know I hurt you and I'm sorry baby. Forgive me."

I looked back at my DJ as he played "Open Road" and I started to sing my heart out. (Song in the MM)

I ain't meant to hurt.. and now I gotta pay for my actions. Imma get her back..

After the concert was over I called Mijo.

"Wassup?" he said answering the phone.

"Sup nigga, you making her stay?"

"Chris man listen I can't make a grown woman do anything she is not like ya ex Bruh, she going through it right now and she needs her space. Let her be for awhile"

"Come on man you tripping, I deadass need that girl man"

"I'm serious man just let her be, she'll come around.. Look Imma hit you up tomorrow aight?" I responded by handing up because I know what he saying was true but I can't live without that girl.

I changed out my performance outfit and into a windbreaker and some sweats.

"Yo?" August said knocking on the door coming in the room. "You coming out tonight when we get back to the hotel?"

"Nah not tonight Imma just stay in and chill" I said putting on my Nike slippers.

"You straight?" He asked.

"Nah but I'll be"

"Aight stay up, we killed it tonight" he said and dapped me up.

"We did huh? And I will" he nodded stepping out. Just not feeling nothing tonight man. I grabbed my bag walking out the dressing room as people congratulated me and I thanked them. I pulled my phone out my pocket walking outside as I tried to call April pushing past people getting with Pat getting in the backseat. "Please answer" I mumbled to myself. It kept ringing till it went to voicemail.

So I left her one.
"Hey baby I just wanted to check up on you.. I'm sorry for hurting you baby fr. Just answer the phone please" I took a deep breath. "I love you April, call me back" I hung up hoping that she got the message. I'll probably send more later.

"You good boss?" Pat asked as we were stuck waiting for people to move.

"Nah man I will be though, I'm good"
I'm really not but Imma deal till I get home.

April

I saw that he left a message and I didn't even bother to listen to it. I sighed finding my purse that I used for the funeral grabbing it seeing an envelope sticking out.

I remember Paris told me to read this when I'm down or sad and right now I'm below this point. I grabbed it out my purse opening the envelope nicely as a necklace fell out and I held on to it smiling. I opened the letter that was inside reading it

"Sup April,

If you are reading this something terrible has happen to me that I'm not able to be there to comfort you. I knew you would've blown my phone up aha.

I wanna know why you opening this letter though? Who do I need to fight now? Marcus? Nah Chris? No some other nigga that I wasn't able to witness because I'm gone? Man.. Keep ya head up fr because nobody gone have your back like you do or like I did but ya know lol.

April, I would hate to be there to witness seeing you cry man and you know that just smile for your bestfriend. You are way too beautiful for that.. Look at it this way God only give certain battles that we can handle and whatever you going through right now God know you can handle it he knows where you are headed {he is lowkey that's so Raven x10 fam} so look on the bright side everything is about to come into place. Don't be discouraged at all have a little faith in him he knows what he is doing.

You were supposed to be mines lowkey but you was flexing aha but find a man that treats you like a queen and love you unconditionally because you deserve every bit of it. Don't run and read this letter because you or ya partner got in a little fight, that's nothing that comes with the territory just stick in there solider.

But I gotta go, I love you from the bottom of my big ass heart keep smiling for me baby.

Love ya fave, Ron (or whatever ugly ass nickname you gave me)

P.S I had that necklace for awhile and I didn't know how to give it to you because I thought it was going to be awkward but wear it everyday. Love you again."

I place the letter down crying my eyes out.. This was all too much in a day. My vision was blurry due to the tears but I place the necklace around my neck staring down at it the little shaped 'R' with a diamond beside it. He always knew... He always knew

I miss you Ron.

(I couldn't stay even hours away from y'all that is sad lol, been updating a lot due to ATL being out of school for snow that hasn't even come yet lol but comment/vote)