Secret Admirer

21) End of the Letters

|Madelyn|

The bright light was burning my eye I slowly opened it in pain. My head was on fire. I looked around the room I was in and then the flashbacks came back to me. Oh, my goodness last night was horrible. It makes me want to throw up.

"Knock, knock" Cole says before opening the door.

"How's your head feeling this morning," he asks me with a sympathetic smile. 

"It's okay, thank you for last night you didn't need to," I explain to him.

"Of course, I did Madelyn I care about you," he says to me sitting down on the bed.

I can't believe Bryce tried to rape me last night. Oh, my goodness I'm so stupid. 

"Well, thank you again but I should get going now,"

"No problem, Lyn but at least let me drive you home please,"

"Sure," I tell him smiling sweetly.

On the drive home nothing happened all I could think about is what happened to me. And how nice Cole is. He has a really big heart for the people he cares about. 

"If you don't mind me asking, are you and Allison okay," I ask with caution.

"Um yeah I think so I mean we've been dating for so long and think she was drunk, and in shock, since Bryce has been our friend for a long time, and we said things we didn't mean if that makes sense," he explains to me as he drives down my road.

Why did I want him to no of course they are okay, they love each other so much and I'm the problem in the way of their relationship.

 "Oh well, that makes sense, you guys are a really cute couple by the way," I say to him.

"Thank you, Lyn that means a lot, coming from you," he says smiling.

We get to my driveway, and he parks his trunk and turns to me.

"If you ever need anything please just call me I will always be here for you," 

"Thank you, Cole," I say before I close the door of his trunk and wave goodbye.

As I walk into my house all I could think about is what the night would have been like if Cole didn't show up when he did. I'm so grateful for him being in my life. I wish he could always be there, but I know now that I should be the one to leave this friendship we have. But promise this one more letter explaining how much I loved him and always will.

I knock on the door and thank goodness Rose answered the door for me to come in. 

"Lyn, are you okay," she asks as I walk in.  

 "Yes, Rose I'm okay just had a rough night that's all," I explain to her giving her a big hug. 

"Oh, I'm sorry sweetie come here," she says hugging me longer. 

"Are my parents home by chance," I ask her as I am looking around. 

"No, they are not your mother said they are having another fancy dinner tomorrow night so she's buying a new dress," she tells me.

The thing about these fancy dinners my parents have been that it's always some rich family they are trying to win over to like them.  At this point, I'm used to which sucks I wish things were different. 

"Okay well I will be up in my room if will excuse me," I say going up the stair.

"Lyn, wait anything happened with Cole yet," she asks smirking.

"Rose oh my goodness no he has a girlfriend he very much loves," I explain to her trying to smile.

"Sure, he does," she says with a wink.

"Ugh, Rose," I say going up the stairs to my room. 

Once I got to my room I went to my bed and laid there for a pretty long time before I got up and the box filled with stuff to make Cole's love letters. Wow. I've been doing this for a long time I just can't believe it's going to be over. Just like that. 

Knock, knock

I stuff the box under my bed before I answer the door. I take two deep breaths before I speak. 

"Yes, you may come in," I answer with a fake smile.

"Good morning, Madelyn, oh my god, when was the last time you showered Madelyn, I am very disappointed," my mother says walking around my room with a disappointed frown. 

"I do apologize mother I will right away," I explain to her.

"Alright then good I know Rose probably already informed you, but this dinner is very important to your father, and I so please be on your best behaver," she says.

"Yes, mother," I say nodding. 

"Here's your new dress for tomorrow," she says before leaving the room. 

"Thank you, mother," 

Oh, thank goodness she's gone. But she's right I should probably shower. I walk to the bathroom and turn on the light before looking at myself. Oh, my goodness I'm so happy my hair was covering my neck because there are so many bruises Bryce left on me, I don't want my mother to see because I know she would call me a whore or a slut. I don't know how I'm going to go to school with him tomorrow. Ugh, I hate my life. I turn the water on, remove my clothes, and get in, I wash my body and hair making myself feel a lot cleaner. 

After my shower, I go to my bed and realize how tired I am, so I decided I'm going to go to sleep and take my mind off things. 

"Because what's worse than knowing you want something, besides knowing you can never, have it?"

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Happy New Year guys!

I love all of you.

-E