tryst - an ashaangi ff

xi

Sivaangi was chewing on the homemade food Shakeela ma'am had brought, still waiting for the shoot commence. She was unusually early today, earning curious looks from the crew. She hadn't been able to sleep that we'll recently, a certain lad had taken up most of her thoughts at night.

Something had shifted between their energy ever since that day at his house. There were more stolen glances and teasing smiles. Most importantly, she found it hard to control herself around him. Every moment she just bursted to tell him about her feelings, but she hesitated. The reason? There were a few. The first being the most obvious, getting rejected. She know she would take it in her stride but it would still hurt. The next being, him avoiding her. They still had a show going on and she didn't wanna  ruin anything both in a professional or personal aspect.

Deep down, she know these reasons were bullshit and she really just wanted to hear him say it. But she wouldn't admit that, not even to herself. She turned her attention to the banter Pugazh anna and Mani akka were having about who they were getting paired up with, when Mani asked, "Sivu, nee yaar kooda pair aga pora?".

Sivaangi shrugged abd answered, "Yaar vanthalum okay, but Shakeela ma'am kooda pair aagave illa", she said giving a smile to the elder woman who returned it.

"Ashwin kooda romba naal aachu la?", Pavitra said sitting down, stealing food from Pugazh's plate, to which he sent a glare. Sivaangi hummed in response. It had been a long time since they paired up and she missed it but she was afraid she would step out of like if they did.

Pugazh patted her shoulder and said, "Paarvala vidu, Ashwin inniku unnaku than", she laughed at him.

"Naa yaaruku inniku?", a voice came from behind her. She turned around to see the man of the hour, dressed in a vibrant blue jacket.

"Vera yaaru, unga kulu kulu dhan.", Pavitra said, winking at her. Ashwin's gaze flicked over to her, a small smile on his face. Sivaangi chuckled and waved her wands as a sign of 'no' and said, "Na ethume sollala, avangala etho solranga". Ashwin narrowed his eyes at her like he thought she was bluffing, but there was an amused glint in his eyes.

"Aama, avaru vantha nee enna vennana solla pora?" Master said, putting his arm around Ashwin's shoulder. "No." Sivaangi replied boldy, shrugging her shoulders. Everyone laughed , teasing Ashwin's slightly flustered face and were dispersed to get make up done.

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As luck would have it, she got paired with him that day. It was after a very long time so she definitely enjoyed it and she soon realised that, making him laugh, was one of her favourite things in the world.

She had noticed him and many other people say to her, that she was the reason he broke apart in CWC. But in her eyes, it was him who gave her light to shine under and watch from the shadows. She doesn't know if anybody would do that for someone, he had put her on this pedestal for the world to admire and it was only because he accepted her for herself.  He was truly, everything she wanted and more.

By the end of the shoot, everyone was tired, Sivaangi somehow managed to muster up enough energy to wipe off her makeup and change clothes. A hesitant knock came upon her door, and she opened it to find Ashwin standing there, looking as tired as she was. He gave her a faint smile and asked her, "Appa vandacha?". Sivaangi shook her head and said, "Illa innum oru 20 minutes aagum sonnaru." Ashwin hummed and nodded, and took a hold of her wrist and said, "Appo enkooda vaa".

Sivaangi furrowed her eyebrows in confusion, and let her drag him outside of the set. The moment they stepped outside, she shivered at the cool breeze. The sky was a deep blue, and nothing was heard except for the soft breeze brushing by her ear. She blinked at him, and he took her far to the side. She gestured a 'what?' and he pointed up on the sky. It was truly beautiful, against the blue, the moon shone like a diamond at sea, stars glimmering right beside it.

Ashwin smiled at her reaction, silently pulling off his jacket and placed it on her shoulders as she continued to rave about the beautiful moon. Sivaangi clutched his forearm and said, "Do you know the phrase?  Tsuki ga kirei desu ne?". He raised an eyebrow, it's usually him sprouting out phrases such as this. He was the hopeless romantic, after all. He shook his head no, and she spoke, still staring at the moon, "It's japanese for "the moon is beautiful, isn't it?" but it's actually a more poetic way of confessing love".

A silence befell them. He didn't know what to say and she didn't know as well. They looked everywhere except for meeting each other's eyes, afraid of saying more. Ashwin took a step back and looked at her. Her hair billowing at the breeze, his jacket draped across her shoulders and he realised that he couldn't wait for the right moment to tell her, because every moment with her would be right. A small smile of hers, gave him the reassurance that everything would be alright. He had to tell her, it was now or never.

"Sivaangi, I-"

A horn blared loudly from the other side, he turned to look at her, and she said, "That must be appa." He nodded slowly and she looked at him furiously, tilting her head, "Enna solla vanthinga?". He smiled, and took a step forward, adjusting his jacket on her and said, "Adutha thadava solren".

She nodded slowly, and said goodbye, walking back to the sets, but oddly felt empty. She clutched the ends of his jacker, wrapping it around herself tightly, seeing his faint figure as she drove away.

"sore wa anata to onaji kurai utsukushīdesu"

The phrase hung, bitterly, around them.

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hi hi makkale,

i honestly don't know what this chapter is, it's basically word vomit. i wrote what came to my mind. you guys are probably frustrated at the almost confession, but it had to be done!

hope you guys liked it. if you're wondering what that phrase at the end means, it means "it is as beautiful as you".

please comment and vote!

p.s:- not proof read either, forgive me for any mistakes 😅

love,
sai.