no feelings- ian gallagher

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just a teeny tiny bit of smut in this one so if you don't like it sorry just skip ahead.

oh and yeah i kinda lied in the a/n lol i just wrote this out of nowhere and really wanted to post it.

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ur pov:

he kept on thrusting at a fast pace, your moans more hitched, nails digging deeper into his back. you moaned louder, letting him know he hit that one spot that drove you insane.

"man, i love you." ian mutters into your neck, revealing his true feelings for you.

except you didn't want feelings. every relationship you've been in was hard because of your trust issues. which is why you only agreed to be fuck buddies with ian.

you push his chest, getting him off of you. he sits on the bed confused.

"hey what's wrong?"

"you need to go, you can't stay here."

"look i'm sorry i didn't mean it, i don't love you."

his words didn't make the situation any better. you quickly pick up his boxers and clothes, making him put them on.

"i promise i don't love you."

"we can't do this anymore."

"wait no, why?"

"this is no feelings ian." you say softly, before your tears fell in front of him. "you need to go. im sorry."

he sighs, and nods before saying, "yea yea, i'll go now."

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his walk home was depressing. he kicked rocks along the sidewalk, and threw them at tree barks. he was sad, and angry for showing his feelings to you.

he lets his anger out more when he arrives at home. he throws clothes, shoes, and kicks his drawer and the wall. his room quickly became a huge mess, before lip came in.

ian sits against his bed frame, and lip takes a seat beside him on the bed. lip gave ian a moment to breath before he explained everything to his brother.

"she fucking dumped me dude." ian said now laying down, crying softly into his pillow.

lip pulls out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket. ian sits up, taking one from lip, placing it between his teeth. lip lights his before passing the lighter to ian.

"there was nothing wrong with her. it was me, the fuck up, to tell her that i loved her."

"you were just being honest." lip told his brother before inhaling more of the cigarette.

"if i'm being completely honest, i think i do love her. i'm falling for her. her smile, her eyes, her personality, everything about her. but the feeling isn't mutual. if only she let me stay, atleast to comfort her."

"give her some time, then bring it up, and have a real conversation." lip said getting up, standing by the door frame, "you'll talk to her soon. don't overthink."

ian smiled with closed lips, sitting in his bed. "thank you for listening to me. i love you bro , goodnight."

"goodnight man." he laughed, shutting the light off for his brother.

that night, ian thought about you.

more than ever.

and he fell asleep,

you being the last thought in his head.

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