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A C E G R E Y
Feelings were never something I liked dealing with. Until I met her. As soon as I saw her I started to feel like never before. Almost as if she gave me a purpose to life. But that made no sense, she was like every other girl. Except she was a drug I was craving to be high on forever. And as I said multiple times before I fucking hate her for it. She's pathetic, flinched at anything, scared of everything, cries all the time, doesn't even go out to the club, is still a virgin, didn't even have her first kiss.

But I still wanted her more than anything.

I know every time I say that I'm gonna make her hate me but failed terribly. But a few weeks had gone by since she met Zayn and Alec but her words just kept replying in my head.

"we're just partners for a few missions and then probably just go back to being strangers"

Did she really not feel the same way I do? Am I actually being the weak one and letting a little girl get to my head? All these thoughts ran marathons around my mind as I started to slam my fist harder and harder at the punching bag that was hanging on for life as it dangled from the celling.

"Ace calm down" my mother said waking into the indoor gym. "You can't keep working out all day, what has gotten into you?"

I just stared at my mother panting as I started to catch my breath taking off my boxing gloves. "How did you know you love dad?" I blurted out.

She smiled at me as a small laughed slipped out from her lips. "He was like no other, met him one night at the bar and who knew he wouldn't leave my mind for a second after. I was drunk and drinking my problems away and he was the only one there for me. The only one I trusted to keep me safe."

Does Aurora trust me to keep her safe? Was I ever there for her? "Must feel nice to have someone to trust like that huh" I said taking a seat on the bench.

"Did something happen? Specifically between you and Aurora?" She asked tilting her head and smiling down at me.

"She makes me feel things I never thought I could feel. She gives me a feeling of comfort with just her presence and I don't like it." I complained earning a laugh from my mom. "Well maybe you should ask her to see if she feels the same." She said with a reassuring smile.

"Mom I would look like a coward if I said that and she says no. You realize how humiliating that is? Being rejected by a little girl." I said looking up at my mom.

"You can't avoid your feelings forever hun, one day you're gonna have to fall in love, arranged or not you have to face your feelings."

Fuck that I don't like feelings especially not the ones I get from her. But my mom was right, regardless if I liked it or not I'll have to face them.
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I was walking up to my room when I heard someone talking to Aurora in her room. I know I shouldn't have eavesdropped but I could of sworn I heard my name.

"Aurora he loves you, you can see it in his eyes. If he didn't you think he would of killed all the men that were staring at you in the alley when you two were walking home together? You think he would hold you when you needed someone and me and Jordan weren't there? You think he would stay up just for you if he didn't like you?" I heard Caroline say.

"That's the issue if he does love me I can't love him back. I don't know how to love someone like that. I'm gonna push him away and I don't wanna hurt him but at the same time I don't wanna look stupid. Yes he's amazing but how do I know he's not gonna lead me on and drop it after he gets whatever he wants? For fucks sake he's Ace Grey any woman would be on their knees for him. What did I have to offer?" I heard Auroras voice before hearing someone fall back on the bed.