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chapter 12 | Delicate

"Promise you won't talk about it with anyone."

"I promise you, Mister Jeon," she gives me her word, and I do not even ask twice, I know I can trust her. "I...this is serious, and you might not even believe it, but...this is about the relationship I have with my wife and..." I stop myself before continuing. I peek behind me to make sure the door is closed, and I keep going. "So...this is about that, but I guess you expected it..."

"Kinda," she confirms, and I go on to explain what is happening and torturing me. "I...I haven't talked about it with Hajoon, I feel like this is better to avoid it, but..." I clear my throat, finding it difficult to speak and recall this day. "Almost one year ago, when she was pregnant with Hyejoon. I left my workplace a bit earlier to be able to surprise her at her work for her birthday. So I went back home with a bouquet of roses and a box of chocolates, then I wrapped it up and all, I did everything and added a note for her...And Hajoon was already home, so I told him about my plans, he knew about it," I point it out since this is important to me, and she nods, listening carefully.

"So I left the house, I drove to her workplace...and...You have no idea how happy I was, I kept on thinking about her reaction, about the smile she would have on her face, but..." the knot in my throat tightens now that I'm close to saying the worst. "When I was there, I went out of my car, with the presents. At first, I was supposed to give her the note with the other items, but when I saw her car near mine in the parking lot, I thought this would be a bit romantic to leave it on her door. So I moved towards it, and once I got closer...that's when...when I saw her,"  I clench my fist to not burst into tears again. "She was with her boss...cheating on me..." I bite on my lips. "This was so painful to witness it that I did not even have the strength to do anything. The only thing that went through my head was that I just stumbled upon the one I love the most in my life, and she was having sex with another guy...and the pain in my chest was so unreal and agonizing that I could barely breathe. I felt so dumb...I could have beaten that guy up, do something, but I didn't. I went back into my car like a stupid dude, and I cried so much...the physical pain was the worst one I've ever had, it was like someone had stabbed and torn my heart apart..."

She does not say anything, but the more I look into her eyes, the more I can discern the glisten in them. "And...so...since it was not enough. I received an email this week. To make it quick, I asked for a paternity test. You know, after catching her cheat on me when she was pregnant, seeing her act fake with me without ever feeling any guilt made me doubt a lot. So I requested one test to check if Hyejoon is indeed my son, or if she had him with this guy...and...I waited for, like, two or three weeks, and they answered me," I do not keep quiet but need some pauses between my sentences, staying quiet to be heard by her only. "The test showed that...I'm not..." I nibble on my inner lip, still not believing that it is real but just a living nightmare. "I'm not his father..."

"How could she do that to you?" she tears up because of this, but I force a smile and wipe her tears away. "I was maybe not enough...I don't know..."

"Not enough? That's impossible. You're an amazing man. I hate her even more now...how could she do that to you...?" she leans towards me to hug me again, and she rests her head on my chest. My hand makes its way to her hair in short, thoughtless seconds, and I tangle my fingers in it. I rest my cheek on the side of her head, and I close my eyes, feeling mentally and physically worn out. I just want to sleep and forget about everything, to be happy in my dreams, or just leave the real world.

"Don't let her ruin your life because she's a horrible person. I know it must be really painful and hard for you because of what you got to know...but...Hyejoon is your son. You're the one who takes care of him the most, you love him, you're there for him like no one else is. You're a wonderful and caring father...the DNA won't change that..."