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chapter 27 | Physical contact

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9:20 pm.

"Did you eat well?" I walk back to our car after dining at this fancy restaurant, and she smiles at me. "I did. That was a first time for me."

"Really?" I slow down the pace to not reach my car too quickly and scrutinize the way she walks in those heels. "Yes, I've never eaten in a restaurant, let alone a fancy one."

"Oh, I hope it was a good first time then," I smile, and she does so, relieving me from a doubt. "That was an amazing one," she affirms. "Since it was with you," this sentence melts my heart but pains me as well. She constantly sends me hints, if they can even be called that, but I cannot return them. I need to keep some distance between us, no matter how difficult it is, the more I will let my feelings have the upper hand on my actions, the more this will be hard for me to hold back.

I do not know how to answer to that, so I just stop at my car, unlock it, and I open the passenger door for her. This might seem old-fashioned to her, but I do not want to change who I am or how I act, I cannot.

Once she is in, I close the door and join her a few seconds later. I take my jacket off, feeling a bit hot, she does the same, and we both put them on the back seats. The silence remaining in this enclosed space, I insert the key but do not turn the ignition on yet. I lay my eyes on her, and I think about a thing that I could say, something that could erase the quietness.

Nothing comes to my mind, but her eyes meet mine. There are plenty of things that I wish I could tell her. How much she means the world to me, how much I need her, how pretty and so special she is, and how much I love her. She is such a sweet and considerate person, a girl like her cannot be found easily, so I consider myself to be lucky, but just as much unlucky.

"Is something wrong?" her delicate voice fills the void, and my lips curve up as a response to it. I shake my head, and I turn the ignition on to start the car. We both put our seat belts on, and I go on the road to home.

"Are you sure?" she does not let this go as she must have noticed that I was deeply dived into my thoughts. "I am," I roll the window down for a little gap to allow some air to blow on my skin, and I rest my elbow on the door to hold the steering wheel with my right hand only.

"Tell me if you're cold, okay?" I make sure she is comfortable, and she nods to me. "I'm a bit hot, so don't worry," she pulls her hair back, and I do not even pay attention to what my body does but rub a finger over my bottom lip. "I am too."

"You always are," she chuckles, but the meaning of this gets me to peek at her with an expression of surprise. "Oh, really?"

"Yeah, I mean, your body, like," she struggles to explain herself, and her nervousness amuses me. "Your hands and body are always warm."

"Hm. I know that's what you meant," I play with her, feeling like it is impossible for me to not tease this cute girl. My lips form a smirk that cannot be restrained, and I have a gander at her again, spotting that she is keeping her hands between her thighs. I stop the car at a red light, and I slide my fingers down the steering wheel to drop it on my thigh, holding the back of my neck with the other hand.

The silence being too heavy on us now, I decide to turn the radio on but lower the volume to barely hear it. This is just enough to have something in the background. I also close the window since the temperature of my body went down to a better degree, and I pull my hair back.

"Did you enjoy your day?" I break the silence again, willing to talk with her. "I did. I really had a good day, this was fun, and I felt so good...I won't forget it," she answers and puts a smile on my face without even knowing. "I'm glad to hear it. I tried my best to give you a good time."