Broken Souls

Meeting the team

Pov: Shay

I look at the door as its knocking and in walks Tobin heath Lindsay Horan And Becky Sauerbruun, now I know I'm out of my league I don't deserve to be here surrounded by all these amazing women I could never meet up to any of them I dont even know why Jill called me the thoughts in my head are to loud I need to find away to calm myself down before i have a full blown panic attack, so I pull out my phone to text my best friends group chat hopping that will calm me down.

My best friends are Leah Williamson dann van de donk jordan Nobbs Jill Roord And Kim Little
After pulling up the group chat I send a message " GUYSSS Save me I'm about to have a full blown panic attack need distraction....." after 30 seconds Dann messages back. " Breath you have nothing to worry about you are safe no-one can hurt you anymore just do your breathing techniques that we have shown you, now tell me why you are panicking" after listening to dann I do my breathing to slow my heart rate down.
" Urrg just some of the girls from the team walked in and I got in my head about not measuring up to them." I knew I was being silly but I cant get out of my head at times, I knew only Dann would message back the others will still be asleep.
"Do I need to come and knock some sense into you, I know you get trapped in your mind some times but you have been with us 7 years constantly proving you are one of the best in the world dont undo all that hard work we will always be there for you, so please be there for your self confidence is what you need so fake it till you make it. And please take your ADHD meds or you will be bouncing off the walls. Just message or call even facetime anytime you need a reminder of who you are, always remember we love you now put your phone away take a deep breath and show them why you are the all time leading goal scorer for Arsenal" after sending a quick reply I do as dann said take a deep breath and slip my phone back in my pocket as I look up I notice more people in the room now.

Jill stands up to address the girls in the room. "Welcome everyone we are still waiting on a few more ladies then we can start the meeting then grab some lunch as you can see we have a new player Shay Cruz dont bombard her with questions now ones the last four people turn up I will let her introduce herself then you all can ask question." I now have to put on my game face knowing I have to do a QnA the only thoughts in my mind are Danns fake it till you make it hmm I can do that i spent most of my life faking stuff this cant be that hard. After 30 minutes everyone is here so will all take our seats to start the meeting. Jill clears her throat then starts once everyone is silent. "Thanks for being here we have just under 170 to spend together before the world cup opening game I know that with training on the pitch and bounding off the pitch we will be a well oiled machine before you leave grab your keys from mark and dawn all keys have a number on them so it will be a lucky dip of who your roommate is thought it might be fun these roommates will be the same for this hotel only as we get to the next hotel you will have roommate assignments, before that we have a new player Shay Cruz stand up here and introduce yourself." Putting on my fake smile I stand up for what could be a horrible interrogation.
"Hey I'm Shay I'm 22 I'm not really sure what else to say so why don't you ask questions and I will try my best to answer them"
I look up to see kelley standing on her chair after a give her a puzzled look she asks her question " Hey I'm just gonna ask to questions because we all wanna know the answer first are you single and second are you gay" I try to stifle a laugh and becky and carli smack the back of her head. " erm I mean yes to both" after that christen smiles at me then asks her question. "Sorry about kelley we dont know where she come from" that makes everyone giggle and calms my nerves slightly. " so what collage did you go to" okay wasnt really a bad question but could lead to so many more if I dont word it in a way that gets me out of my past. " I didnt go to college I graduated high school early then went professional straight away" that seems to surprise a lot of girls in the room I catch the eye of hope she look so intimidating her blue eyes bore In to my green ones like she is trying to figure everything about me out, I quickly look away from the scary but insanely beautiful goail and meet the eyes of ali who smiles after I return it she asks what I'm sure most people want to know. " So what's your position" I smirk slightly feeling like playing cocky now before responding, " Guess which position" that makes the room bust out laughing before I realized the double meaning and correcting myself, " The pitch that is" after that ash cant contain her laughter then all of them start to through out random sex positions while I just laugh along before ali takes a guess at my playing position " Well you are cocky and full of your self like Hope and Ash also from your arms I can see tattoos so I'm gonna go Goalkeeper" I smile a shake my head, "No I'm a forward but I can play everywhere on the pitch" this shocks everyone even the coaches and trainers. After 10 more minutes of point less questions Jill let's us go find out our roommates we then have an hour to unpack before lunch.