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I sat on my porch and looked around, the fence looked really good, Robin was coming by today to finish my coop so hopefully this week ill get chickens. I really dont want to focus on romantic feelings but i cant help it...seb just feels like the perfect person to be with. It feels and seems like we are right...but i dont want to think about it. I want to be happy alone. Shane started walking up the farm and i waved to him.

Shane:hey, you look cute today
Y/N:thank you
Shane:so what are you doing today?
Y/N:grocery shopping then nothing i guess.
Shane:great. Meet me tonight by the dock at cindersnap
Y/N:wait but why?
Shane:8 o clock ok?

He left. I heard seb close the front door and we headed to joja mart. I was already not wanting to go there, it always had this weird scent...like lemon floor cleaner and tears. I knew they would be the best place to go though since they had more options and a frozen isle. Seb stopped at the bus stop for a second and looked a the road then at me. He didnt say anything he just stared. We walked in peaceful calming silence until we got to joja where sam attack hugged us.

Sam:yo! Alrighty so what are we getting the demon lord toady
Y/N:demon lord?
Sam:yeah that's your title now.
Y/N:why?
Sam:because...if i call you princess or queen I'm afraid you'll hit me.
Y/N:...call me mistress then.

I said with a smirk. It made seb and sam blush. I laughed and we grabbed a cart and started grabbing lots of food. Then i saw the candy isle. I haven't had sweets in so long...i wanted it so bad and seb saw how much i wanted them.

Shane:hey what's up cant wait for tonight?
Seb:to..tonight?
Y/N:shut up, no i want lollipops. I haven't had candy or chocolate in years. I miss it.

I went straight for the candy and put a bunch of junk in the cart. Shane stared at me smiling, seb stared at me frowning and putting this back, and sam laughed. I was allowed to get 3 chocolate things and 1 sweet thing and 1 sour thing. It was for the best but i was still sad. We left and said bye to shane and sam, Morris tried to harass me into buying a joja card but there was no way i was doing that. We got back and seb helped me put stuff away then he stopped and grabbed my hand. He pulled me into him and my breathe stopped. I could feel his heart beat and mine, syncing up. My brain was fluttered with only how his hand was so soft and he smelled like flowers and coffee. I could hear my washer machine about to be done and then his voice.

Seb:dont...dont choose him. Ill wait for as long as you need. I'm more than happy how we are but...please dont choose him.

He let go as soon as a knock hit the door. The washer went off at the same time and i could feel my heart break. I didnt want to move. I couldnt even though i tried. Seb answered the door, it was sam.

Sam:hey, shane told me to give this to y/n since i get off before him today. Oh also what was that? I saw you guys through the window.
Seb:thanks. Um...nothing. I guess.

Nothing. Ok. I started walking to the washer and moved sebs clothes over, my brain now on auto pilot. Seb said hell come pick his clothes up after him and sam come back, they went to sams house to practice or something. Hayley texted me a few times and i told her I wasn't in the right head space to respond and apologized. Then i realized it was 8pm. I ran/fast walked to shanes.

Shane:oh hey, why are you out of breathe?
Y/N:i was on auto pilot i forgot what time was so i had to run cause i didnt want you to think i missed our...um what is this?
Shane:i wanted to talk. Not really anything else. Unless you want it to be something
Y/N:what did you wanna talk about chicken man

*Then the heart event an what he says during that occur, we skip to after youre done with it*

Y/N:I'm um making you a coffee cup.
Shane:really?
Y/N:yeah, seb said i should make one for everyone and i did. I uh..i wrote chicken man at the bottom.
Shane:i love it. Wait so if I'm chicken man then what does that make you exactly?
Y/N:what do you mean?
Shane:what's your nickname? Cause on your stream your just y/n
Y/N:oh didnt sam tell you? I'm mistress now.

He laughed. It was a deep hardy laugh, it sounded like he needed it too. He smiled at me as i kept a straight face trying so hard not to be happy at his happiness. Then he blushed.

Shane:no wait really youre into that stuff?
Y/N:what youre telling me youre not?
Shane:...i mean...i dont really know

I got really close to him, just to tease him and make him blush again. It made me laugh when he blushed. But as soon as i got close i broke. I started laughing and couldn't stop.

Y/N:I'm so sorry, it was a joke with sam earlier and i couldnt help it I'm sorry
Shane:come on you made me think you wanted to kiss me

He shoved me lightly but i was already not balanced since i was laughing so hard and i fell into the water. I choked a little on the water since I accidentally inhaled it but i heard someone yell my name that wasn't shane.

Sam:hey! What happened?!
Penny:oh my yoba are you ok?!
Shane:what are you two doing out here so late alone?
Vincent:y/N! Are you ok!?
Sam:vi..Vincent!?
Y/N:haha I'm ok, i was messing with shane and he pushed me in by i hope was an accident.
Shane:it was! I didnt realize you were so wobbly
Sam:vincent go home!

Vincent went home and sam walked penny home. Shane helped me out of the water and put his jacket over me but i declined it. I didnt want to get it wet, especially since its a hot night it didnt make sense to use a jacket. Seb was waiting inside my house which was a surprise to me.

Shane: i uh..i should go, but thanks. I needed someone to talk to and I'm glad you were there to listen.

We shook hands awkwardly since i didnt want to get him wet. I walked inside and seb looked me up and down. He looked like he got his heart torn out. My brain went fuzzy again and i ran up and hugged him tightly. I could feel him stiffen up in shock, then i could feel him slump back down and hold me tightly back.

Seb:did...did you choose?
Y/N:i chose myself seb..by..

The words fell out. I wanted to stop myself from the cute nickname but i couldnt. He guided me to the shower and laid back on the bed.

Y/N:are you staying again?
Seb:last night. Tomorrow mom and i are working on the spare bedrooms.
Y/N:oh..does that mean my chicken are ready?!
Seb:yeah, tomorrow morning you can buy your first chicken, rabbit, or even duck.
Y/N:if i get a duck his name will be sam. If i get a rabbit it will be abby.
Seb:what about the chicken?
Y/N:....y/n
Seb:really?
Y/N:lets be honest I'm a fuckin chicken.

He laughed and shut his eyes.