As The World Caves In

ch. 32

Raven's POV

I don't know how long I've been unconscious, but my body feels like I've been asleep for at least a couple of days. I stir my eyes open, the lights from the ceiling blinding me in any way they can. I look around me and my eyes land on the sleeping form of the sokovian woman. I let the smile creeping up on my face win as it gives me this familiar feeling in my chest I always get whenever I look at her.

My body instantly feels adequately energetic despite the fact that it probably looks like shit from other people's perspective. I didn't care though. With the little energy I have left in my body, I move my right hand, carefully placing them on top of hers to feel the contact of her delicate skin. As soon as I made contact, I intertwined my fingers between the cracks of her own, gently tightening it to feel closer to her. I caress my thumb across the knuckles of her hand, admiring my beautiful girlfriend right beside me.

Sometimes, it really dawns on me how lucky I am to have someone like her. She's more than words could explain. The way she naturally exists does something in my heart that I am never ever going to explain. Whatever she's doing, she's doing it pretty well if she's got me feeling all of these raw emotions that I can't quite grasp an understanding of.

I must've been gazing at her so deeply that I didn't even realize that she had woken up. She did her cute nose scrunch that I had grown to love when she realized that I was awake and staring.

"Hey, you're awake." Wanda said softly as she rubs her eyes to adjust her vision. "How are you feeling?"

"Better than I deserve." I reply back with a warm smile. "How long was I out?"

"A couple of days.." Wanda mumbled under her breath.

I nodded listening to her talk as I tried to sit up but a stinging pain came throbbing on my lower chest. I winced in pain as it became a little unbearable.

"Hey, be careful. You have three fractured ribs."

I gave up on trying and went back how my body was positioned before I even got the idea to move them. I averted my attention back to my lover, locking my eyes in.

"You look tired, have you been sleeping in here?" I ask, out of curiosity.

Wanda nodded, "yes I have, but I didn't mind."

"If you are still as stubborn as I remembered, I'm assuming you haven't had a proper meal either?"

Wanda chuckled, "I don't think I can remember the last time I had a full meal since you left—"

As soon as she realized what she had said, her pupils dilated. Her face turned pale as she's probably assuming that she had hit a very sensitive topic.

"I'm sorry. . I didn't mean to spring that out on you like that."

I chuckled awkwardly, "don't apologize. I should be the one doing that. Listen Wanda, I'm truly sorry for all the pain I've caused you during the time I was gone. The control they had on me was unimaginable. They would always try and taint the memories I had with you and it became difficult every day trying to control what I have left. I just want you to know that there's not been a day where my heart didn't think of you. Even when I was controlled, my body was still trying to let me know that you're not the bad guy they painted you to be. You're more than that. I miss you so much my love, I don't want to be away from you anymore."

I couldn't contain my emotions as tears began to spill out of my eyes without my permission. I let it happen though considering I have to let her know that I mean well and that I'm not going to hurt her.