I'm sorry

chp 7

tw warning ! : mention of $cars and $tabb!ng

back story of ash continuous
time : 8 month ago

" Im sorry , Ash . " Father said too me as he fell to the ground with carol and she looks at me with a sad smile .

an hour ago ...

" aghh.. " I felt my head and clenched it , another soaring headache .

I rubbed my eyes as it felt rather numb , some dried parts of my eyelashes was under my eyelid , I rubbed it off and got up on my bed .

I sighed .

" another day to go through .. " I muttered .

I stood up straight and walked to the shower to bathe . tump. tump. tump. I could hear my heartbeat rapidly get faster as I walked to the bath room .

I looked at the shower with a grimace on my face .

shit.

I took off my clothes and slowly step into the shower room . It was rather warm , the temperature has been up this days , baking up the bathroom thar I haven't touched in two days .

I bit my lip , afraid .

i then on the shower on top of my head , and turn the knob around and the water splashed on me , I covered my mouth to muffle a scream , as the water splash down .

Blood leaked out of my wounds , but this time it was rapid not slowly .

" pseehhh " the water ran down and down ..

the openings soo open up wider on my wounds and the infected areas had a very stinging pain and spicy feeling to it .

it felt like I was dying in a very painful way .

I then turn off the tap and fell to the floor , " holy fuck . that fucking hurt . "

I covered my whole face .

I was glad I was done with that ordeal , " are you proud of me ? I showered even all those cuts on my legs .. " I lowered my body down as I stared up the ceiling .

" nobody ? " I cried out loud .

nobody , nobody , nobody , nobody , nobody
repeated in the mind .

I struggled standing up after staying for a long time in the shower , I grabbed my upper thigh for support and stood up .

I quickly went out of the shower room and took tissues to dab on the dried blood and after that putting some ointment on it I found in mothers's " safety pack " .

I sighed and dabbed , " aagh.. " it stings a lot .

After all that , grabbed the towel and wrapped it around my body and went to my bedroom . I rummaged through my closet and found a black striped hoodie that had the word - gone on it .

I smiled looking at it and took it out and placed it on my bed , I covered myself with the towel and looked outside the door to see if anyone was outside .

I let out a huge sigh of relief after discovering there weren't .

I went to the closet , opened my second drawer and pulled out all of the dresses in he drawer mother had put there : finally ... I thought .

my binder .

I wore on my binder putting it at my tightest so that i would be flatter - my chest , one of the only things that made me happy .

" ASH ! " I was startled but realised father was calling from outside and I scrambled to put all of the items back to the drawer and scurried on to wear my hoodie and found random dark blue pants and wore it on.