She's mine

S E V E N T E E N

DRACO POV

My eyes fluttered open to the sun shining through the curtain gap from the balcony. It must've been around 5am judging by how low the sun was set.

I looked down my naked body to see Gigi resting her head on my chest with her arm around my torso. God she looked so beautiful tangled up in her silk bedsheets.

She really was the most beautiful sight I ever saw. Her hair was a mess spread all across my chest and shoulder.  I stroked her hair tidying it to one side as I studied her face just admiring her sleeping. I knew when she woke up she would immediately tell me to leave so I was just making the most of every second I had with her like this. 

Even after what happened last night I know she is going to push me away. Probably avoid me at all costs. We haven't slept together in so long but every time we did she would make a point of pretending it didn't happen. She acted like it didn't too.

We was the same. Didn't want a serious relationship but didn't want the other to have it with anyone else. That's how toxic we was. She could play innocent all she wanted but she was just as bad as me but she was smarter, made it seem it was never her fault. She would flirt with other boys in-front of me so I would kick off and it would be my fault. She knew how to work it.

"Why haven't you left yet" her voice startled me
She jolted her arms off of  me and sat up when she realised she was cuddled up to me.

She grabbed the sheets and covered herself up making a point to me not to look

"Really Gigi after last night you want to cover up from me" I was annoyed that she acted like this every time

"I'm not sure what you mean by last night Malfoy I had a head ache and went to bed. You and Nott came and I left you both and the party to go to sleep" I stated to him

"Stop playing games Astra" I was losing my temper I was sick of her doing this every time

"You told me you understood Malfoy. We forget. Nothing happened" she shouted at me

"What if I'm done with pretending nothings happened? Pretending there's not something majorly fucking real going on here? What if I'm done with it?" I spat back at her sitting up on the bed

She sighed as she got up and grabbed her robe to cover herself 

"I'm not doing this right now Malfoy" she  Calmly said walking away

"Oh yes Gigi, yes you are" I stood up following behind her as she headed to her walk in wardrobes trying to keep up with her

The fucking wardrobe had three floors. I followed her up the steps to the second floor

"Haven't you got to get ready for school Malfoy? You should leave" she sounded so unbothered it just infuriated me even more.

"Answer me this question Gigi" I called out to her

She turned around rolling her eyes "Humour me then Malfoy"

"Who will it be?" I asked

"Who will what be?" She frowned

"Who are you going to have a understanding with?" I asked as-if it was obvious

"Well I don't know yet that's why-"

"Who's jewellery will you accept? Who will buy you an engagement ring? Who are you going to marry?" I took a step closer with every sentence

"Malfoy plea-" she tried to stop me

"Who will be the father of your kids? What will their last names be? What will your last name be? Sure they might be rich and good looking but will you be content without it being me" I was proving a point to her, there's no way she could see it being anyone else but me

"Who are you going to go to bed with every night? Who are you going to grow old with?" I was getting more and more serious

"Malfoy that's enough" she screamed at me

"Aren't you sick and tired of all the games Gigi" I sighed

"I'm not playing games anymore Draco" she whispered. My heart sank, I could almost feel physical pain in my chest. Her face was full of sorrow, I think she could be telling the truth.

I couldn't stand the pain inside of me, I didn't understand what was happening, why was I physically feeling hurt? I was finally beginning to believe that she was done with me and my insides was being crushed. It wasn't going to be me. I wasn't the one she was going to choose.

I didn't say anything, we shared a sad and serious glance for a long moment, me staring into her glistening eyes.

All this time, kids to now

All the scandal

All the dinner party's and balls

All the flirting and fighting

All the last dances

All the headlines of a Astra/Malfoy heir

It was all for nothing

And it was all her decision. She's gave up on us.
I shook my head in disbelief before I turned on my heels and stormed to her bed. I quickly grabbed my clothes and got dressed without saying one word. I exited the room by the balcony and climbed down marching to where the magical wards end.

Within seconds I was stood at the front of Malfoy Manor. The house elf let me in before I stormed inside. I was angry. So so angry and hurt. I was hurt by the one possible person I could be hurt from. I entered the study and walked straight to the expensive whiskey cabinet, I grabbed a bottle popped the top off then took a massive swig while I sat on the emerald green arm chair next to the fire place drinking from the bottle.

My thoughts was going crazy thinking about all the times I messed up. The times I was trying to make her jealous, to make her want me.

She don't want me

*gulp*

I can't have her

*gulp*

She don't want me

*gulp*

She don't fucking want me

I couldn't take my thoughts any longer I slammed the bottle of whiskey into the fire in temper making the fire roar.

I put my hands on my head, leaning my elbows onto my knees. I was defeated I really didn't see the point in me trying anymore. There wasn't another girl I could see myself with. Not one. There was no point in trying anymore. I wasn't going to have a understanding with anyone. If it wasn't her then it will be no one . The sooner I come to terms with that the better.

What's the point in being a perfect gentleman anyway? Fuck that I'm living life purely selfish from now on. I don't give a fuck what anyone says.

I was that wrapped up in my own thoughts I didn't hear my mother approach me, i looked up at her sympathetic face as she looked down on my ruined face. I don't know how long she was stood there for. She sat on the arm of the chair and wrapped her arms around me. She must have watched me drink and then smash the bottle. She stroked my cheek as she embraced me.

Normally I would have told her to get off in a polite way, but it was comfort. Something I needed so desperately right now.
I closed my eyes and just sat in her arms listening to the fire

"You'll find someone else" she spoke in a loving way. How did she always know everything? I looked up at her as she gave me a knowing look. I stood up freeing myself from her hold.

"No I won't" I sadly said as I walked up to my bedroom.

I wasn't going back to School today.