FORMULA 1 - One Shots (L.N.)

💔 Lando Norris - You wanted that so now live with your decision

The first week was the hardest and most painful one for me. I was still in disbelieve about everything that has happened. How could a relationship suddenly go from absolutely perfect to fights and no speaking at all? I didn't see it coming, he was changing slowly I only noticed it the last weeks Lando being a completely different person. He was always on the run, never spending time with me. When he didn't have a race, he was either streaming, playing golf with Max or at the MTC. Lando even began partying, although before he absolutely hated it. But everything he did now was without me. Normally we spent a lot of time together enjoying every minute we could get with his and mine, rather his, busy calendar. We went shopping together or karting, watched Netflix and cuddled or tried cooking, as we were both not really good in it. When I had holidays I flew with him to his races and supported him, I loved seeing him doing what he loves the most. But then everything changed and I couldn't understand it.

It was like two weeks before his next race in Monaco and he just came back from his last one. Lando played the whole day golf with Max and I was studying at my own apartment. I decided, as we haven't spent time in what felt like forever, to would try and cook something for us. When he came home on this day the first thing he said, when he saw me standing in his kitchen was 'What are you doing here?' and I was a little surprised as normally he was always happy to see me especially when we haven't seen each other in two weeks. I told him, that I thought that we could make us an nice evening and that I cooked for us. He was ok with it as he was really hungry. We sat across from each other at the table eating in silence, I tried to make conversation with Lando but all he said was a either a short 'yes' or 'no'. The whole time he looked in his phone not one time he glanced at me. I got frustrated with each minute passing, as normally he was the one always talking.

So I thought about telling him the good news that I could come with him to the next race, as I had holidays in two weeks. I was so sure that he would be happy about it. "Lando?" I asked quietly. He just answered with "Mhm" and didn't even look up from his phone. "I have holidays in two weeks so I thought about coming with you to your next race and support you. Is that ok?" He said nothing. "Lando, did you hear me?" "Yeah, I did but I am thinking. I don't think it is possible for you to come with me because of regulations and everything, you know." and with that the conversation was over for him. I laughed "That is weird, because I talked to Charlotte yesterday as I met her and she told me that she asked you if I would come to the race because all regulations have been cancelled. But you didn't ask me. Why? Do you not want me to come with you?" He sighed and it doesn't sound very pleased. For the first time he looked up at me "To be honest with you, no I don't. I just want to relax and with you there I can't. You're on me like a limpet, and it sucks, okay? I just want some peace from you, but you can never stop talking. You're always whining about how little time I have for you and blah, blah, blah. But have you ever thought that it's on purpose that I don't spend time with you anymore?" he said coldly. I was shocked about his words as he never had talked to me like that before. I could feel the tears starting to burn in my eyes. "You could have just told me about how you feel instead of treating me like shit the last weeks. So that is what you want? You want me to leave?" I asked him. "Yeah, that's what I want." He told me with a cold voice showing absolutely no emotions. "So you are breaking up with me?" Lando rolled his eyes "Oh my god, yes that's exactly what I am doing. Come on your are not dumb."

Since that moment it have been four weeks. The first one was me crying the whole time and spending all day in my bed. I just wanted to be alone, always thinking about what I did wrong. Why did he had to end this relationship after more than one year? I couldn't understand. On the other hand Lando was doing great. I saw it on Instagram, his friends posted photos of them golfing, partying or streaming together. Lando looked like he hasn't been better before, always laughing.

The second week I got better from day to day. My friends and sister stopped by to see how I was doing. In university I could concentrate sometimes. But I still looked like shit, not being myself quite yet. Sometimes I found myself smiling when someone said something funny, but most of the time I was still crying. I just thought that Lando was the one for me, I had almost all my firsts with him. I trusted him with my life but seemed like he didn't care about me at all. He was still partying with his friends and other girls, having the best life.

Then the race weekend came, I forced myself not to watch it and I succeeded. But when I looked in Instagram I saw that he wasn't doing well, he made a mistake, crashed and had to retire from the race. I didn't know what to feel. I was kind of sad for him but on the other side I was also quite pleased that he wasn't doing well.

Week three and I was going out again with my friends, not partying or anything but just chilling a bit in the park. And for the first time in three weeks a looked presentable, feeling like myself again. I posted a photo of my friends, the food and me. As title I wrote 'Everything you need in life', because I wanted to show Lando that I didn't need him to be happy. When Max, Lando's best friend, posted a story of them partying again, I couldn't see Lando.

Now in week four I was my old self again, laughing and having fun. Of course I still thought about Lando and what happened but I realised that it was not my fault. He was the one acting like a asshole and breaking up with me, so it was his loss. My friends and I went partying in a club one night. I haven't heard or seen Lando since that moment, but suddenly I saw his face in the club. He was sitting with his friends and some barbies a few metres away from our table and he was looking right at me. Our eyes met and I could see his lighten up, but I looked away quickly. I wanted to get away from here as fast as I could but it was too late, he was already making his way to our table. Only when he was standing right in front of me I could see how bad he looked. He had dark bags under his eyes, like he hasn't slept in years, his hair was way too long and his eyes were clouded. He just stood there and looked at me, I was wearing a short, black dress and high heels, which my friends forced me to wear. "You look beautiful." Lando said. I laughed at that and asked "Lando, what do you want?" He took a step towards me "I thought we could talk, I miss you and I am sorry for the way I treated you." Now I really had to laugh "No Lando, just no. I went through hell the last weeks because of you while you on the other hand were doing great. And now that I am almost my old self again, you want to come back into my life? Forget it. I don't let you treat me like shit again. You wanted that so now live with your decision." With that all was said and went to the the dance floor with my girls, letting him stay there dumbfolded.

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