FORMULA 1 - One Shots (L.N.)

💔 Lando Norris - What kind of guy would do that Part 2

So here is the second part to my one shot 'What kind of guy would do that'. Hope you like it and thanks for reading. 🥰

If you want to listen to a song while reading this, I would recommend the song Josslyn by Olivia O'Brien, I think it fits perfectly with this story.

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"Lando what kind of guy do you think you are?"

With that said I knew that it was time to leave. For the last time I looked at Lando but he wasn't even able to look me in the eyes. All I could do was laugh not because the moment was funny rather because how absurd this whole situation was and I said towards Lando "Yeah I thought though, no answer from you.". Meanwhile Linda was still processing my words and looked a little shocked, it kind of satisfied me to see that. I said everything that I wanted to. I mean of course I was still not over him because let's be honest he was not just "my first time" but also my first love and we were great friends before everything that happened. But with what he did, he was no longer a part of my life.

Anna and I left the Birthday party after we said a quick goodbye to Max and our friends, made our way to our apartment and I cried my eyes out. Classic but if he wants to be with Linda so bad then okay. I still wasn't able to understand how he could do that or what I did wrong. Was it because I was so inexperienced or because I wasn't working out enough, not pretty enough? Stop it, I told myself. I won't feel insecure because of a fucking boy, even if it was Lando. And after I haven't heard from him in two weeks after the Birthday Party I knew to 100% that I didn't mean anything to him. But still, I wasn't able to stop thinking about him, I tried not to but I just had to watch the Belgium Grand Prix. Anna wasn't proud of me but sat down beside me to also watch it. He was doing so well and could have gotten Pole position in Qualifying but then suddenly the rain got worse, I could see him driving up the hill of Eau Rouge but when no car exited the corner I knew he must have crashed. I knew that this corner was known for being super dangerous, and when I saw that scene of his crash I was totally shocked. It looked horrible, when he at first didn't respond to the questions over his team radio I thought about the worst possible scenario. I was on the verge of crying, but when I heard him respond I could feel all the tension falling from me and tears started to form in my eyes. I shouldn't feel like that, I shouldn't have that much feelings for him after everything he did but I did. Anna hugged me and said "Hey, everything is okay. Look, he is okay." "I know, but what if... I can't loose him." "No, no what if. He is okay but please remind yourself what asshole he is. He hurt you so bad and I don't want you to get hurt again.". I sighed because I knew she was right "I know, this won't change anything.".

I could see him being driven to the Medical Center, he looked okay but limped a little. I took my phone out and opened my chat with Flo, Lando's sister 'Hey, I just wanted to check if you all are okay and I also hope that Lando is fine.'. Flo answered within 2 minutes 'Hey, we are all good, thank you. Right now in the hospital with Lando but he should be fine just a few bruises. But I miss you and hope we can meet up soon.'. I smiled at the message, when on accident I met Lando's family in his house, who were there without a warning, I hit it off right from the start with Lando's sisters Flo and Cisca. We matched so well and even after our "break-up" I still held contact with them. 'That's good to hear. Yeah I would love to.' After knowing that he was okay, I tried to not think about him anymore. He now had Linda for that.

Life went on. The following days I went to school, studied and just chilled with Anna. I even met Lando's and my common friends and it was really good, we talked and laughed a lot. I knew that they were curious about what was going on with Lando but they tried to avoid this topic and I was grateful therefore. And also there wasn't anything to tell, because Lando and I didn't have contact anymore.

On Wednesday evening at suddenly our door bell rang, I expected it to be Anna as she often forgets her keys. So I got up from my bed and went towards the door, I opened it and was already on my way back to my bedroom "You and your keys." I laughed. But when there weren't any steps to be heard and no answer, I turned around and looked shocked at the handsome boy with the curly brown hair in front of me. Lando looked at me trying the understand what is going on in my head, normally he was really good at that. He smiled a little and said a shy hey. Really? After all he just says hey, unbelievable. I rolled my eyes and asked annoyed "What do you want Lando?". The smile left his face immediately when he heard my tone. "Can I come in please? I just want to talk. Please." Lando looked at me with his puppy eyes and in a weak moment I let him step in the apartment. I went towards the couch and he followed behind, sitting down opposite of me. We stared at each other quite a time, neither of us speaking up. Lando always was beautiful, his smile lightning up every room, his eyes sparkling, his hair curly and soft and his body lean and muscular. But now when I looked at him all the memories of him and Linda came back to the surface. The things he did playing in my head like a video, his hands on another girl's ass, him in her bed like he was in my bedroom in the past. All the emotions of sadness but mostly anger also came back.

I found my voice again "You wanted to talk, now talk or leave.". Lando gulped at my cold tone "I am so sorry. I am sorry about everything that happened, I didn't mean for this to happen. I like you. I really do and I never wanted you not to be in my life. Please, you have to believe me. I know that I am an total asshole and...". I interrupted him "Oh really, I didn't notice. Wait let me resume real quickly what happened. So three weeks after we had sex, you hooked up with another girl on your holiday while I was at home waiting for you to come back. You fucking knew that it was my first time and what that meant to me. I wanted to wait for the right one and you took that away from me. Oh and you didn't tell my about your fling, I had to find out about it over social media like the rest of the world. And not only did you fuck this other girl, you also brought her back to England so she can attend Max's Party with you where you knew I would be. I think that was all, right? I can't believe I were so stupid, just another girl you ruined.". Lando got up, walked towards me and tried to take my hands in his. But I swatted them away. "I know I fucked up big time and I want to make it up to you. But please I need you. With you I feel like I can do everything, you don't expect anything from me and with you I can be the real me. I broke off the contact to Linda, I won't see her ever again, I promise. I want you to be the only girl in my life, I want to make you happy and be there for you.". So now he was able to say all the words I wanted to hear from him for quite a long time, but now it was too late, no one has ever hurt me more than him and I wasn't ready to make myself so vulnerable again. "No Lando! It's not that easy. You can't just come here, say all these words I wanted to hear for such a long time and think I would forget everything.". I poked my finger in his chest. He looked so lost at the moment, thinking about something to say that could make everything okay. "But you still like me, right? Flo told me that you wrote her last Saturday and asked how I was after the crash. So you watched me race." Why did it have to be so hard, why couldn't he just leave me alone and go back to his model girl? "Of course I still like you, I think I was even falling in love with you. But now a part of me also hates you for what you did and I can't ignore that. You hurt me so much and I can't trust you ever again. You had to go and ruin it, so you could get a quick fuck. But now we are off and we never be on again, I hope that it was worth it fucking Linda. Now leave and never talk to me again.". He looked shocked at me, not quite realising what my words meant for 'us', but when he processed them his eyes became glassy and he wasn't able to hold the tears back anymore. He knew that it was over and that he had no place in my life anymore.