FORMULA 1 - One Shots (L.N.)

💔 Lando Norris - Don't you dare to call me love

Why did I agree to come to this race in Portugal? Why was I so stupid? I just could have said no, everybody would have understood. But no, I had to show myself that I was over him, which I clearly wasn't.

But here I was standing with Carmen in the Mercedes garage watching Qualifying. George was doing really great of course but he, he was unbelievable. And that was in a kind of way making me a lot more mad than I already was. When somebody hurt you like that you want that this person is also doing miserably, but he wasn't. It looked like the time and season of his life.

When they showed him on the TV I could feel Carmen's eyes on me, she was worried about me. Carmen and I always got along really well, ever since the first time Lando brought me into the paddock back then. We met when Lando and George agreed to go on a double-date and Carmen and I hit it off immediately. Always since then we have been best friends, we even moved in together in London as we studied at the same university. It was also she and George who were there for me when I learned that Lando cheated on me.

This was one of the worst days of my life so far. Lando didn't even had the guts to tell me, I had to found out about his little hook-up with this sun-kissed Instagram girl via social media. All this people tagged me under various photos of the two kissing in front of a night club. Some even said, that they saw it coming as they always thought that Lando could have done way better than me. It hurt a lot, he always reassured me in the almost two years we have been together that he loved me, that to him I was perfect, but guess this was just a lie to get sex as often as he wanted. I was ashamed and felt awful that I was so dumb. His fans were parted in two, one side that were kind of hating and cancelling Lando now because they couldn't believe that he would be such a cold-hearted snake and cheat and the other side that hated me anyways and like him single or with the other girl way better. Reading comments like 'She deserved that', 'Finally, someone in his league' were really hurtful. So besides dealing with getting your heart broken by the first boy you loved, I had to deal with his fans laughing about me.

When Qualifying ended Carmen made her way to George's driver room meanwhile I decided to go back to our hotel. Walking through the paddock I carefully avoided to walk by the McLaren garage and hospitality. I haven't talked to Lando ever since his unfaithfulness was leaked, back then he wanted to explain his decisions but for me everything was more than clear. And to be honest I didn't know if I could be firm enough not to forgive him as soon as I saw his beautiful and cute face. He tried to contact me, by writing a lot of messages, making many calls and even standing in front of my apartment. Sometimes I read his messages, saying that he was so sorry and didn't know why he did that. He told me that it wasn't something serious and that he would never see that girl again, but for me it was too late, the damage was already caused.

It was unfamiliar to walk through the paddock alone without having any McLaren merch on. Back then normally when Lando wasn't by my side I walked with Charlotte to the different buildings. I mean I am still sometimes talking and chatting with Charlotte as she wants to know how I am but I normally avoid everything Lando related. When I almost made it out of the paddock, the exit already in sight I heard my name being called. I turned my head and saw Carlos, he was coming my way smiling brightly and I returned the smile. I always get along really well with Carlos when he was still Lando's teammate and I also liked his girlfriend Isa. When Carlos heard the news about Lando's hook-up and our breakup he immediately contacted me and tried to cheer me up a bit, not understanding his friends actions.

As soon as Carlos reached me, he gave me a big bear hug and said "It's so good to see you. How are you?". I smiled at him "I am good." He pulled me with him towards the Ferrari hospitality while walking we catched up about everything going on lately and he told me about his season so far. When we almost reached the building I saw a group of people standing in front of it, talking with each other. As soon as we were close enough I could make out the people. I noticed Charles and his girlfriend Charlotte, Isa and then there was Lando. I stopped my movements and stared at him and the girl next to him. I couldn't believe my eyes, I immediately recognised her from the photos that were still burned in my mind. How could he dare to bring her here? Carlos looked at me apologetically "I didn't know that they would be here, I promise.". I just nodded. Charlotte noticed me first and screamed "Oh my god, hey! You look stunning!", as soon as she said that all heads were turning in my direction. I could feel Lando's stare but I avoided his gaze. I am not backing out now so I started to move and walked towards them. Isa, Cha and Charles hugged me. I still didn't look at Lando or the girl but his eyes were still on me and he said "Hey." but I ignored it completely. Charles tried to ease the tension in between the group and spoke up "You know what? Red would look way better on you than this Mercedes things." I laughed. Suddenly Lando's new whatever said "So I think orange is the best." and smiled sweetly. I almost had to throw up and when I looked at Cha and Isa they had the same look as me. "I think you should go back, Jon can drive you to the hotel." Lando said to the girl. "What, no. I want to drive with you!" she whined. He looked pleadingly at her to not make a scene. "Fine." she said and walked away but before that she kissed him. I could feel the tears burning in my eyes.

When I felt a light tap on my arm I looked to my right and saw Lando looking at me hopefully, leaning in and saying quietly "Please, can we talk? There is so much I want to tell you. And by the way you look beautiful." I laughed "Seriously Lando, you want to talk? I think everything is clear. You brought the girl you cheated with on me six months ago with you. And you just kissed her in front of me." The others noticed the heated words and excused themselves letting Lando and me all alone. "Please, love! I don't like her, she is not my girlfriend or anything. But after you broke up with me and ignored me for the last six months straight, I felt so alone and she was there. But I love you and I want to make up for my mistakes!" He tried to take my hands in his but I quickly made a step back, bringing distance between us. "Don't you dare to call me love! You lost that right as soon as you kissed and slept with another girl all these months ago. You want to make up for your mistakes? How? By bringing this girl with you, sleeping with her or what? You said you never would see her again, remember?" "So you read my messages?" "That is not important now. Let me tell you just one last thing. You can't make up for anything, because you are dead to me!"

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