FORMULA 1 - One Shots (L.N.)

💔 Lando Norris - This is your fault Part 1

I was standing in the McLaren garage looking intensive at the screen showing the race. Beside me was Lando's Trainer Jon, he was also completely focused on the screen. Lando didn't have the best Qualifying yesterday so he started from P13 today in Imola. He was fighting to get to the front but the car was just not good enough. He was under pressure as Stroll was right behind him. Stroll tried to overtake Lando but he could block him successfully. They were on Lap 32 which meant that there were still some more.

Stroll tried once again to get past Lando. In the next moment all I could see was gravel and dust in the air. On the track were not two cars anymore but just a dark green one. The papaya coloured car was nowhere to be seen. Everyone in the garage was shocked and waited impatiently to see what just happened. The camera focused on a orange car in the gravel crashed into the barriers showing that it was completely damaged. 'Please let him be okay' I thought. I could hear his engineer asking him over the radio if he was okay. After a few seconds we all heard a short "Yes I am ok. Sorry guys". Everyone who knew Lando a little bit knew that he was beyond pissed and also sad as he wanted a good position so badly. Lando was now in view on the screen and you could see how his head hang low while he climbed out of the car. When I felt something on my shoulder I was startled because I was completely in my bubble of fear and adrenaline. I looked to the side straight into the face of Jon. "Hey, he is ok. You can stop the shaking now. Sit down for a bit, you look like a tiny little ghost." I rolled my eyes at this saying "Hahaha really funny, but I am fine thanks." I waited eagerly for Lando to come back to the garage because only when I can see and touch him myself I can be sure that he is well. They showed the incident again and it was clear that it was a small mistake from Lando, he braked too late and lost the control. Therefore I knew that Lando wouldn't be in the best mood when arriving here.

Lando finally came towards us still with his helmet on. He went straight through the garage just stopping to say a few words to Zac und Andreas and then he was gone off to his driver room. I was a little confused as he completely ignored my presence. Normally hugging me was one of the first things he did when finishing a race. So I looked at Jon but he was also a bit confused and just shrugged his shoulders. "Maybe he just needs to cool down a bit. You know how he can be. Just talk to him." he told me. I nodded, making me way to Lando's room. When I got there I knocked on the door so he would know that I am here. I didn't wait for a reaction when opening the door. Lando was standing topless in the middle of the room getting out of his race suit changing into his team wear. When I stepped into the room he didn't even look up to see who it was. I made my way over to him standing in front of him asking "Hey, are you ok? I was really worried about you and I am so sorry that you couldn't finish the race. But you were so good out there." Now he looked at me for the first time and I could see all the emotions in his eyes but mostly there was anger. He replied coldly "Yeah I am fine. But I just want to be alone now and lay down. So yeah...". And with that he turned around and walked towards the couch. "Lando? I know that you wanted more. So how about we watch some series and I get you something to eat?" I asked him. He sat down on the couch saying louder as normal "I just said I want to be alone, are you deaf? So leave me alone!" I was shocked as he never talked to me in that tone before. All I wanted to do was cheer him up and I could feel the anger in my body. "I just wanted to cheer you up a bit. I am really sorry but don't take it out on me." I replied as calm as possible. Lando rolled his eyes standing up again coming my way screaming "This is your fault!". "My fault? Why are you blaming me when you crash?" I couldn't believe what I heard. How could he blame me for this? "Because you are selfish and let me not train enough. If I would have had the chance to train more it wouldn't have happened. But no, you always complain that I am not spending enough time with you. But you should know that racing is way more important to me than you! So leave me the fuck alone!" he shouted at me. And this were the words that broke something in me. I always tried to be there for Lando and support him. I rescheduled meetings and exams so that I could come with him to races. I tidied his house and cooked so he could train as much as possible. Therefore his accusation was not justified, not even one bit.

I just looked at him stunned, because I didn't know what to say. I wasn't even angry anymore all I felt was disappointment. And I think he noticed that he fucked up because he made a step towards me and wanted to grab my hands in his. But I stumbled back bringing as much distance between us as possible. "So this is how you think of me? Thanks for telling me, I think everything is clear now." I told him with tears in my eyes but I didn't want to cry in front of him, not now. "Please, I am so so sorry. I didn't mean it like that..." he said with pleading eyes, but I already heard enough. "No Lando, you meant it exactly like that. So I won't be selfish anymore and let you alone." with that I opened the door, stepped out of the room and ran out of the building as fast as I could. I could hear Lando screaming my name but I didn't stop. 

I took a taxi to the hotel and went to our shared room. I packed all of my things in my suitcase, laying Lando's hoodie that I wore today on the bed together with the necklace he got me for our one year anniversary. With one last look back into the room I closed the door and left like he wanted me to.

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