FORMULA 1 - One Shots (L.N.)

💔 Lando Norris - We are not friends, we never have been

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For her you are flying to Spain so you can celebrate her birthday together, even if you are just staying for two days.
For her you are going to this fancy club with way too many people.
For her you are dressing up acting all rich.
And for her you don't care about people making photos from the both of you, rumours spreading like a wildfire.

All the things you have hated so much before are now normal for you. You became a completely different person, turning into someone you have always made fun of and disliked. For me you are a complete stranger now, not the boy I gave my heart but the man who broke my heart with absolute no regret, completely cold-hearted. And for what? This girl you know from Instagram with that perfect smile, perfect body and perfect life.

Some thought we were just friends who sometimes had 'fun' with each other. But we were so much more, we could talk and laugh about everything being stupid together. We had the same humour, we sometimes were childish but also serious when we had to be. When you visited your family you always took me with you. You knew how hard it was for me being so far away from my own family and your family always welcomed me like I was already a part treating my like your girlfriend. I don't know if they really thought I was your girlfriend or what you told them, but then I would be interested in knowing what they thought about your behaviour. Or it could be that maybe they don't even know why I don't come with you anymore. I am sure your sisters didn't think that you would be this type of a guy.

You always told me that I was one of the most important person in your life, that I was your anchor. When you came home from a race weekend you always wanted me near you finding peace, until you found it somewhere else. I thought that we kind of had an agreement that we were exclusive but obviously I was wrong. We sometimes even talked about holidays we could spend together or our future in general. For me we were a couple that didn't want to put a label on.

Now I have the feeling that for you I was just the girl who was there when you wanted attention or someone to talk to or sex, until you would find your dream girl. You didn't even think about informing me that our kind of relationship was over, because maybe you thought that it wouldn't matter. I got the information about this new girl in your life like everyone else, when you suddenly brought her with you to one of our friend's get together after you have been on holiday with her. Everyone was surprised as none of us had ever heard from her before, excluding Max your best friend of course. I couldn't believe that you would do something like this to me, expecting me to be super nice to her, so she would be comfortable. On the one hand I was furious but I was also hurt, I felt used and not good enough for anyone. The whole time I ignored you. But you made it super hard, you wanted to engage me in a conversation with the both of you. I also felt your eyes on me probably asking yourself why I was behaving so weird, you had absolutely no idea. When you came towards me I always tried to get away as fast as I could, being successful until you catched me.

I just wanted to quickly grab a drink so I went to the kitchen, I was so focused on the refrigerator that I didn't hear your steps. I don't know how long you stood there watching me overthinking what to drink. When I turned around I almost had a heart attack, seeing you standing in front of me. "Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you." you said giving me a smile. I gave you a fake smile that was definitely not reaching my eyes. Back then you always were able to see through this act but now your focus has shifted. "It's fine." I said and wanted to leave the kitchen. When I was passing you, you stopped me by grabbing my wrist. Your touch triggered a reaction in my body that I did not like. I tore my wrist from your gentle grip and looked at you with hard and wild eyes. "Don't fucking touch me, Norris." I hissed. I could see in your eyes that you were confused and a little hurt by my outburst. That almost made me laugh. You were so used to touching me and you knew I have always loved it, but now with her being in your life it was different.

"Sorry, I just feel like I haven't seen or talked to you in an eternity. How are you?" you said hoping to engage me in a conversation. "Yeah could be. Good, thanks." I answered being as polite and formal as I could be. Inside me raged a hurricane of feelings, I wanted to hug and kiss you, missing your closeness but I also wanted to punch you for being such an idiot and breaking my heart like that. I tried to get passed you again, but this time you blocked to door with your body. "Why are you ignoring me? I texted and called you like a hundred times but you didn't answer once. And also you are being quite bitchy towards Emilia. What is the matter with you? Are you having your period?" "You didn't just say that Lando, right?" I asked in complete disbelief. You immediately realised your mistake and wanted to take my hand but I took a step back bringing more distance between us. "It is just that I almost don't recognise you anymore. Why are you not happy for me? I found someone who likes me and I would like to share this happiness with you as my friend." Wow, it got better and better, I thought looking at you. At this moment you looked like a lost puppy but I knew you weren't. You could also be dirty-minded, loving attention from girls, hunting them to get a quick and easy fuck. I just had to laugh and couldn't hold myself back anymore, I had to tell you everything that was on my mind. "You can't recognise me anymore? Wake up Lando, you are the one who has completely changed. I mean just look at you. What happened to the boy who hated going to a party with a mass of people or who protected his privacy? You are letting her post your dates, making it obviously that you are hooking up. So don't say such things about me when in reality it's you. And just to make it clear we are not friends, we never have been. You just don't wanted to be alone and I was there. I was so dumb for thinking that you liked me because you don't. The whole time you lied, giving me hope that we could be more, even telling me that you see a future with me, just so you could fuck me. And then you leave for that holiday and suddenly you have this little Ms Perfect with you acting like a power couple. You didn't even bother to tell me that there was somebody else and now to top everything you want me to be best friends with her. Sorry but no, not with me! You are not the guy I lost my heart to anymore." I was on full rage mode, being breathless from my speech. When I looked at you, I could see that you were replaying the last months in your head. Realisation hitting you, embarrassment and regret clear in your eyes. You searched for words to try and make things right with me, I still could read you like a book. You came towards me and said softly "I am so sorry. I - I don't know..." I took a deep breath and said with a smile "Yeah, I am also sorry for you."