sometimes I just stop

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Here I go again I guess.

Yeah like the title of the chapter said sometimes I just shut down and I don't know what to do anymore.
I really can't do anything right anymore. All I can do is make people cry and feel bad at the end. So when I know I did something wrong I keep on Saying sorry and so on so forth. But that just makes it worse and I feel like crying in the end cuz I don't know what to do at all. Cuz all I want is to be a good daughter,a good sister,a good friend,a good aunt and last but not l want and I NEED to be a good/Better girlfriend than I am cuz I know I suck . I Know I'm bad at it. I know her deserves so much better than me but want to try and be that girl. That's all I want right now is to make him smile and laugh and more not make him sad or cry or mad anything else like that really. But that's all I seem to be doing is making him sad. But I need to keep on trying to make him smile and be happy again. And I know he'll see this. But I hope her knows I love him so much and I hope to see that wonderful smile soon as I can.

So yeah I guess I'm done ranting now i feel a little better now after that. I just hope I can stop feeling like this soon like real soon. Cuz all I want to do  is be the best person I can be for him and my family and the rest of my friends cuz that's what they need and so yeah I guess I'm done talking now.
So I guess you'll hear from me soon. But umm bye

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