My Life Good And Bad

Myself

So here I go again. So before I continue with this chapter I need to say this. This book is just like a diary yo me at this point so I say what's on My mind and how I'm feeling or anything like that. So yeah I guess have fun reading my thoughts.

So I've been thinking about what type of role or person I am to different people. To my best friends I'm kind and strong and sometimes funny but overall I'm a good person. To my parents I'm their little baby girl. To them I'm loud and happy go lucky and just a copy of them really. To my brothers it's about the same really. I'm just a copy of them. Another chance to try or some little girl who knows nothing. Then my boyfriend how he likes to describe me is that I'm his rock the person that can calm him down or help him or make him smile or something on that lines I guess.
But how I feel about myself is nothing like really any of those things anyone thinks of me really. How I see myself is really a kid who knows nothing and needs to be high half of the time to even get though the day. A kid that cry's to much a fucking cry baby and a toxic person really. I don't see myself as a nice person or happy or cute or anything like that at all. I just see something useless really but to be honest I'm trying to get better on how I see myself and hopefully slowly maybe I'll be the person that j want to be not how everyone else sees me or thinks.

I just want to be me