I swear fealty to you (Clexa fanfic)

Part 57

Lexa POV:

My head jolted up and my body brought my back off of the bed. I was sitting up and I could feel the sweat dripping off of my head and sticking to my body.

My breathing was rapid and heavy on my chest and it was getting really hard to get air. It felt like there was someone sitting on my chest that wouldn't allow me to breathe the fresh air my lungs so desperately craved.

I looked around the dark and empty room as my mind was racing too fast for me to possibly understand. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, remembering what it was that woke me up so suddenly and with so much pain.

"No, please," I said, I begged, as tears fell relentlessly from my eyes. I looked down at the ground, my hands were shaking as warm crimson blood covered them and dripped down my arm slowly, like it was taunting me. Leaving my skin undetectable, only red blood covering them, consuming them until it was all that remained. Blood and death.

My head quickly whipped to the side where I saw the blonde sleeping peacefully next to me. Thank god. I let out a sigh of relief as I saw that she was fine, not hurt, not covered in blood. Safe, she was safe.

I gently moved the hair from her face and her lips parted and I could hear her breathing. That was even more of a relief and set my mind at ease. She was alive and breathing. Alive.

I let out a final relieved sigh to get it all out of my system as I stared over her figure. She was fine, she was ok. She is safe Lexa. I told myself multiple times in my head until I truly believed it in my heart.

I heard her move from her spot and saw her sit up next to me, sleep lingering on her movements.

"It's ok Lexa," she said quietly and I felt her hand on my shoulder, her thumb rubbing delicately on my skin. It seemed to ground my thoughts to her and calm my body.

My heart was still racing though and I was still breathing fast and hard as I turned to look at her. "It's ok Lex, I'm here," she said softly and I felt her hand go over my pounding heart.

I took a deep breath and closed my eyes, leaning into her soft touch on my skin. My breathing slowed a little as I reopened my eyes to look at her. God she was so beautiful.

"You're ok," she said again as she put her hands on my cheeks and rested her forehead against mine. "Thank you," I whispered after a moment of silence as I opened my eyes to look at her beautiful face and gorgeous blue eyes in front of me, looking back at me.

I laid my back down on the bed and she followed my motions. I turned my head to the side to look at her and she did the same.

"Thank you," I said again, releasing my last breath of air.

"You don't have to thank me Lexa," she whispered back as I felt her finger graze over my cheek.

"Of course I do, for everything. You stayed with me through all I have been through, and put you through. Even after I tried to push you away, you stayed. So thank you. I will never stop thanking you," I said, looking farther into the blue depths of her eyes.

"I didn't do it to get a thank you," she said and I furrowed my eyebrows a little at what she meant.

"I did it because I love you," she said after a pause. I looked back and forth between her eyes, scanning them, making sure it was the truth.

Her eyes did the same before I looked away from them and my gaze fell on her soft, pink lips. I put my hand under her chin and pulled her face towards me. I gently placed my lips on hers and felt her kiss me back.

It was slow at first, passionate but our lips moved together slowly. My hand moved off of her chin after I felt she would stay there on her own. My hand moved down her body and to her waist to pull her body closer to mine. I wanted, I needed the touch of our bodies together.

The kiss grew more intense after I did so. We pulled away for a moment to breathe and I looked into her eyes for the brief break we had. Her eyes had so much love and hope in them as she looked at me. I felt like I belonged somewhere for once as she brought her lips back down to mine.

Then we moved together again and even more passionately than before. She slowly moved her head up, not breaking the kiss but moving so her head was above mine.

The other half of her body had lifted up from the bed and my other hand went to her waist that had been freed as well.

She moved all the way over top of me so her hands were on the bed on each side of my head as she straddled my body.

My head lifted up a little, wanting more and more of her. She pulled away a little and my body could only go up so far before our lips parted. I looked up at her and she smiled down at me.

She slowly pulled her shirt over her head and tossed it on the ground on the other side of the bed. I smiled and looked over her gorgeous body that sat on top of me in just a bra. So, so beautiful as I traced my finger along her skin.

Her hands went to the bottom of my shirt before she looked back up at me. I gave her a nod of confirmation and she slid my shirt over her head and tossed it in the same direction as her own shirt.

My eyes followed it until it hit the floor before I turned back to look at Clarke.

She wasn't looking at me but looking down worriedly at my chest. Her fingers delicately ran and traced over the bruises that sat on my skin. I could see the hesitation and worry in her eyes.

"Clarke," I said softly as I lifted her chin up to look at me. "It's ok," I said as I looked into her eyes. I saw her hesitate but she nodded her head and brought her face back down to mine.

I ran my hands over her back and sat up so she was in my lap as I kissed her.

I held onto her tightly as I spun us around, holding onto her with one arm wrapped around her while the other was on the bed as I laid her back down on it. Our lips didn't skip a beat as they continued to flow perfectly together.

I intertwined our fingers and pushed them into the sides of the bed as I broke apart from her lips and trailed kisses down her body. I went over her jawline and down her beautiful neck that moved to the side to give me more space.

I heard quiet moans from her and smiled as I continued to plant kisses on her pulse point. I moved down and kissed in between her breast and down to her stomach. As my lips hit the spot right above her belly button, she threw her head back into the bed and arched her back.

I placed one last kiss, right above the waistline of her pants before moving back up and placing my lips on hers again.

( honestly, I'm so sorry for this. I don't even remember writing this chapter and I feel like a tease. I have been struggling to write smut. But I'm working on it I guess. This is as far as I have gotten so progress right? Also, it will happen eventually. I promise, but it will take some development so bare with me. And because of this, I gave you another chapter!)