dreams

Dream 17, May 20th, 2021

Pretty sure I can't remember the first half of the dream due to ya know, memory, but anyway, this is where I started to remember. I'm sitting at this white circle table with intricate designs engraved in it with wood. Very dainty. In my hand is some delicious tea! The cup is tiny and it fits my hands and it's so warm, it's amazing. Having a blast drinking fancy tea! Some classical music was playing as well and the room had a bunch of those purple flowers, along with blue flowers and white. The purple flowers now- I recognize them (not in dream but right now as I recall it), they're the ones from that one dream with the white cottage house (can possibly be in the house for all I know), the poisonous ones. Not sure what the blue or white ones are, will try and find them later. Anyways, there was sunlight shining in the room but no windows?? Overall, just a cute spacious feeling tea room. I'm all alone but I'm waiting for someone with happy anticipation. Like my best friend is coming back from the kitchen with cookies or something. As I sit there holding my tea like baby Yoda, I start thinking about some invention I was "working on". I feel more warmth and a weight on my chest that gets heavier. I start humming a tune, nothing in particular as my eyes start to close. Jolting awake a little because I'm still holding the teacup, I put the little teacup down, I cross my arms, and stare at the wall going back to my thinkings. Head slowly tilts down as my eyes droop again, my thoughts become incoherent gibberish and my eyes get heavier. More warmth spreads from my chest along with the weight to the rest of my body- like I'm being wrapped in a heavy blanket. My chin rests on my chest and lulls to the side a bit, my crossed arms fall to my sides slowly, uncrossed now. My breathing slows and finally, I drifted off into a deep slumber of pure comfort. In a chair. At a tea table. While waiting for someone. Great. So it's not common for me to actually fall asleep in a dream- I only do this when sick and I am NOT sick, being asleep in a dream is worse than dying or being knocked out. When I am asleep in a dream, MY senses are dopey, blurred, and fuzzy- can't control the body, can't open the eyes or talk, literally stuck in my dream-sleeping-body, trapped. I feel weight on my shoulders and it travels to under my arms, then my backside gets cold and doesn't feel anything. Guessing I was picked up from the chair? Or I fell forward but I didn't feel a head bump, maybe not that. All I know is that from the sudden cold, I heard myself make a noise and wormed my way to wherever the nearest warmth was, which just so happened to be my whole right side as my arms moved up to curl up and sorta lay against the right-side warm surface I wormed to. I heard a slight. slow rhythmic thumping from the surface and a muffled voice from above me. At this point, I'm pretty sure I was being held because my back was still; cold, I wasn't laying down, weight was still on the back of my shoulder, and only one side had warmth- I hope this is false because that means I "snuggled" up to it for warmth and that's freaking just plain AwFuL! (I don't hug much, don't do any of that touchy crap, last time I was held was when I was six and I haven't been picked up since!) After some minutes, it felt long, I hear nature sounds and the continued slow thumping- now with another rhythmic sound from below= footsteps. So now I definitely know, in the dream, I'm being carried- wish I could wake up my body to yeet myself. Except my dozy self is pretty comfortable so no actual resistance is attempted. The footsteps stop after a while and now I feel absolutely nothing so either I'm floating or I have been thrown. Thrown- my back hits the ground and finally, this was enough to wake my body up. I sit up, confused, playing with grass, looking around to see these HUGE TALL TREES. They have these glowing lines on them and it's nighttime, very active because there are a bunch of little moving lights as well. I look around to see who the hell was carrying me, no one is there. "Hello?!" I shout in the lighted abyss. No response. I walk around and I hear footsteps behind me, I turn around and see no one. The Dream ends as my alarm clock rings.