Saturday, December 10th
3rd Person P.O.V
"So how about we talk about it." Sienna said to her upset friend.
"I thought you had to meet up with your family?" Serenity asked.
"I'll call them later they'll understand." Sienna said waving her off. She texted her mother she wasn't coming and turned her full attention on to her friend.
"So do you still love her?" Sienna asked. She of course knew the answer.
"Never stopped."
"And do you think after 6 years you changed for better or worse?"
"Better. I'm not the same person I was in highschool. The extremely jealous, possessive, emotionally hurt teenager. I feel as though I grew as a person." Serenity explained.
"Good because I believe you changed too. You were spiraling when I first met you. I'm glad I could help you get out of that but I'm sorry I couldn't fully heal your broken heart." Sienna said and it was genuine.
She loved Serenity, she was her best friend and it hurt her to see her friend long for a person who wasn't there. Sienna knew about their relationship but not that much because she knew it was painful for Serenity to reminisce on their time together.
"But I still feel like no matter how much I change it's not enough."
"Why do think that?"
"I don't know." She said then continued after a moment of silence. "You know in high school I could never accept that she had other people in her life."
"Whats that mean?"
"Like I told you about the plenty of hookups I had in highschool. I tried to make them fill a void they didn't fit. When I got wit Renèe though she was just that person. The one I needed and I got attached before I even realized."
Sienna let her friend tell her all about it without interruption.
"I wanted her with me 24/7 I didn't want her around other people because I feared that she would leave me. That she would realize I wasn't anything special."
"I was jealous of Nicki. Jealous of Miles. Of her friends the ones we met at Lani's party Aaron and them. Shit I was even jealous of my own brother. I never told her all that though. I always chose to just argue with her instead of talking my feelings out. We both did."
"We argued all the time in high school never wanted to actually talk about our feelings and open up to each other so it always was unsaid words and feelings that left one of us hurt. We were children who didn't know how to express our feelings to each other and now we're 24 and still doing the same damn thing."
"When I would hurt her and make her feel unimportant to me, even if I didn't mean too, I would punish myself. Ignore her because I told myself that I didn't deserve her. That she didn't want me anymore because I would never change."
"But you did."
"After she broke up with me."
"The break up was necessary for both of y'all. It wasn't because she wanted to get rid of you."
"Maybe. Maybe not."
"You know if what Nicki said was true then she was just as broken as you after the break up. You weren't the only one hurting. Honestly I think it all boils down to why you think you don't deserve her."
"Because Renèe deserves the world."
"From what it seems like you are her world. I mean think about it if you weren't why would she be so broken up about y'all falling out?"
"Maybe your right."
"Is she yours? Do you want to be the person that can make her happy?"
"Of course. I want nothing more that that."
"Then why don't you go tell her that NiNi." The girl shrugged. "Well like Nicki said you should sleep on it. I believe you'll make the right decision."
So she thought about it for the rest of the day. And when night finally fell upon them she slept. Well for about an hour because her insomnia kicked in and the only thing she could do was think.
She thought and thought. And the next morning she had her decision. She woke up feeling energized even if she didn't sleep well. She had finally knew what she wanted to do and she was determined to let the other girl know.
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