Butterfly Effect

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TRANS AKAASHI-
i was going to write this for pride month but well i kept putting it off and forgot about it eventually. well, hwg. (ok i gave up halfway so its just akaashi having gender envy lmao)

Dear motherfucking diary,

I remember when I was in grade school, I would always look at the boys in pure curiosity. How come they got to wear pants? All the girls had to wear skirts. Skirts are uncomfortable and annoying. I've caught too many weird middle aged men with tired wives at the grocery store staring at my legs. 

I've gotten too many DMs on social platforms with old men saying, "oh i thought you were 19". Like, man. I'm thirteen, okay? I'm as old as your daughter, calm down.

Boys seem to have it easy. They can show up everyday with the same hairstyle and no one would be picky about it. But girls? If your hair is too curly, you have to literally set it on fire and then iron it like a shirt, but if its too straight, then what the fuck is that door for hair...? Your body has to have the perfect, and I mean, ridiculously, disgustingly perfect in order to be accepted. If you have the tiniest of hip dips, you're considered ugly. If your bone structure isn't a certain way, sucks for you, then.

Oh, and the boys are the worst. They get away with everything. Peeking under a girls skirt? Well, why did the girl wear that skirt then? A millimeter of a bra strap makes you a slut.

A boy could wear a black t-shirt and basketball shorts and be a literal icon. A girl? Please, I'm laughing. Wheezing. Dying. Crying. Anyways, a girl. Full butt-crack ass makeup. Fuck, I have no idea how to do eyeliner. My eyeliner looks like a deceased cockroach. Send help. I need it. Desperately, might I add.

Mascara? Please, my eyes magically become spiders. Foundation? I look like Oli London. Not in a good way (what good way is there even with that man?).

Boys just have to have a nice hair style. That's literally all. Their attractiveness is decided fully on their hair.

Why can't I be comfortable? Why can't I be a boy? Why is this so hard? Why are there so many empty expectations?

I want to be a boy, too.



hfadhv i didnt know how to end it so i just panicked and ended it abruptly. no hate to my boys, i love you guys. it's just that some weirdos aren't it (said weirdos don't have to be boys, pls dont take this to heart lol)

<3

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