Forbidden: FourBEA

Chapter 10

NEXT CHAPTER GUYS! SORRY ITS SORTA KINDA BIT MAYBE LATE BUT BETTER LATE THAN NEVER RIGHT? :D!!! WITHOUT FURTHER ADUE HERE IS CHAPTER 10!

Do you ever have those times when you have a really good dream. And you know it was awesome but the more you try to recall it, the more it fades? No? Well I guess I'm just strange like that.

All I'm able to recall from my dream -i hope it was a dream- was... a train.... the train the dauntless use, I think. Then... falling just like my other dream. That much I know for sure. The rest... it absolutely makes no sense. There was a... whats the word.. a... chasm? And a boy- no. Not a boy... closer to a man but he still looked young... he looks like Fo-

"Bea..." I hear a whisper and soon my eyes slowly open to the bright light that blinds me from knowing my surroundings. I stretch and yawn. I see a dark figure beside me but the light is too bright for me to tell who it is cause he or she is shadowed too much. "W-where am I...?" I yawn again. Of course I don't ask who it is. Sometimes I can be clueless.

"At home... In your room.." Immediately I know exactly who is next to me. That voice that right now sounds so calm. Usally funny and upbeat. The one who I was last with before I rudely fell asleep, literally on him.

"F- Four...?" I breathe out and quickly sit up, pulling the blankets up to my chest to hide myself even though, only now I notice, I am fully clothed.  look around, slightly disoriented. 

"Hey... hey... it's okay. I just brought you home to bed. Thought it would be more comfortable than my arms." I can tell he's trying to tease to cheer me up but I just retort back without thinking "You're wrong on that one number boy." Once I realize what I said I look up and our eyes meet, I always get lost in his the second I see them. They're deep and incrdible and look like they hold all the secrets you seek.

A smile plays at the corner of his lips "Number boy?" He questions, thank god he doesn't say anything about what I mentioned about his arms. Maybe if I'm lucky he just didn't hear me. "Is that my superhero name?" He whispers while keeping eye contact with me. Now he's come clearer into vision since he's moved slightly to lay down next to me. Now usually I'd get uncomfortable, obviously not used to close contact. But this isn't anything usual. Whatever is going on between us is crazy... Even impractical. I mean... Who ever heard of a Dauntless and Abnegation getting together. NO ONE. I don't even think people from diffrent factions are allowed to date... That is unfair though.. But nothing in our society is fair. Let's just say.. I ended up laying my head on his chest with my arm across him stomach holding onto his shirt.

Hearing his steady heart- Okay... no longer steady. Actually speeding up slightly. Am I the reason for that? I don't say anything, but instead continue to listen to the irregular sound of his beating heart. Oh gosh and there is that scent of his again. Really? He has to be good looking, funny, strong, AND SMELLING GOOD!? THIS ISN'T FAIR IN THE SLIGHTEST. Once again this is why I question how he could possibly want me when he could doubtlessly get any girl he wanted. Why me...?

Four starts running his fingers gently through my hair and down my arms. I gives me shivers but I sorta enjoy it. It's a calming feeling. Being in his arms, knowing I'm safe... Then suddenly I remmeber... I sit up quickly. "Four?" I ask gently looking down at him.

"Yeah?" He asks smiling and just keeps playing with the ends of my hair. I smile sloghtly but keep focused on my question. "You said you're the initiation instructor at Dauntless right?" He nods slowly "The tranfer's instructor." He replies simply as if it were so obvious. He must be proud of his job...

I nod slightly then pull away a bit more so he can't play with my hair and instead focus on me. "Then why aren't you at Dauntless. I've seen you so much since the choosing ceremony. When do you train the initiates?" I'm slightly confused. I don't want him getting in trouble spending time with me when he has a priority.

"They have another instructor. He's a piece of work but.... he's there for when I'm not." Four answers, finally meeting my eyes. "Why?" He questions while searching my eyes. I look away and get up. "I just didn't want to be a distraction from your work or anything I guess." I bite my lip.

This is idiotic. I make it sound as if we were a couple. Wait, are we? We've kissed, we've talked, I've literally fallen asleep in his arms. "What are we?" I blurt out before I can think twice about it. Damn it. i should not have said that. I should NOT have said that. I sigh and start pacing.

"Bea, what's going on? What do you mean what are we?" He sits up, now intrigued into the conversation that he's out of that daze of his. "What are we?" I repeat. "Are we together? Are we... A..." I start putting my hands together and intertwining my fingers to show 'being together' but I'm pretty sure I do a miserable job because Four looks dumbfounded. 

I groan and then blurt out "Am I your girlfriend?" I put my hands over my face to hide my blushing and just hide myself. This is so embarrassing. A boy is in my bed. He's sweet, and nice and perfect... And I'm acting like some school girl asking for labels. Why do I need to know so badly?

Before I can even tell what's going on, Four has gotten up and cupped my cheeks in both his hands. While his thumbs run small circles over my cheekbones he also searches my eyes as if asking for permission. Without a word or movment I grant it. Then all thats left is my arms around Four's neck, his one hand at my cheek and the other at my hip to keep me close... And us kissing gently, but with everything we're trying to prove.