Hi Phil,
It's me, Camden again. I just got back from school. It sucked. I got a B on my math test on parabolas. That may not seem all that bad, but to me it's the end of the world. And I don't want to sound like a prick, because I get that any 'normal' (used broadly in this sense) kid would accept that grade with open arms, but I studied really hard for that test, and wow I'm disappointed. Don't you ever feel like that.
Sure in 10 years it won't matter, and I know that. It's just, caught up in the moment it's so important and means the world.
Maybe I'm being over dramatic, but it might make more sense if I explain why I'm "grade crazy".
My older brother was the "perfect child". Perfect grades, perfect collage scholarship, perfect girlfriend, perfect positive attitude, perfect everything else. All my life I have felt like I must live up to his example. At first it was easy. But then I got to high school. For the past two years I've been stressing out over every little grade. Anything less than all As is not an option.
You may think I'm crazy at this point. "Camden loosen up a bit, your parents don't care wether or not you do as well in school as your brother." Well your right. They made that clear when they caught me at 2 in the morning studying for mid terms.
But I'm not doing it just for them. I'm doing it for me.
I want to go to collage at Oxford.
All my life I have hated being an American. I'm sorry, I get that America is amazing and we have such great opportunities here, and I sound ungrateful. Which maybe I am.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying Americans are bad, remember IM and American. I just prefer England. Ever since my family took a trip all around the UK a few summers back. I've been in love.
True I almost got killed in Edinburgh by a run away bus. *nervous laughter* But I'm trying to focus on the positives.
Oxford is my chance to escape. Unfortunately right now I have to go to my cello lesson. 2 days a week, 1 hour each. God bless my mother.
Love always,
Camden
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