The upcoming weeks are filled with love and romance, almost as if we had created our own little Utopia.
Everything seemed so perfect and I was dreading the day that Carrie would be home again.
How was I ever going to tell her that Bette and I were back together again... That we were going to get married... That I didn't wait for her.
That she would come home to a empty house.
I felt terrible that I had to do this to her and in all fairness it wasn't a fair battle since Carrie hasn't been here to fight for me.
"Are you okay, T?" She looks at me with those beautiful Bambi eyes that could even charm a stone.
I simply nod and let myself rest in her arms.
"Are you worried about what Carrie might think?"
I really didn't want to answer that question, I knew how explosive Bette would get when it was about Carrie.
So I just bury myself even more into her arms making it clear that I don't feel like talking about this. Bette seems to have gotten the message and strokes my hair gently.
I wish time would freeze and we could lay like this forever...
Bette has always been the one for me, but deep down I wondered if I was for her as well. I tried not to think about it too much, but sometimes... Sometimes my fears would get the better of me and I would be lost in the question of why she did the things she has done to me and I would keep replaying it all in my head for a possible answer.
This was one of the reasons that Carrie made me feel so good... I trusted Carrie and she had created this safe haven that made me feel like it was us against the world.
"What are you thinking about?"
I must have been deadly silent for the longest time for her to ask me that question, so I close my eyes and pretend to be asleep.
Bette takes a quick glance and softly leaves with a soft kiss on my hair.
I just lay with my eyes closed for a bit when the buzzing of my phone startles me.
I'm finally ready to come home! I've missed you so much, can't wait to see you.
x Carrie
Shit... As if things weren't complicated enough.
I knew that I had to tell Bette, so I might as well rip the bandaid off and tell her right away.
I walk around the house searching for Bette, but she's nowhere to be found so I make my way to the garden where I spot her with her back towards me.
"I can't talk now Felicity."
Who's Felicity? I try to remember if I had ever heard that name before, but I can't recall if I have.
"I miss you in my arms, I will stop by when Tina left."
She what? What the actual fuck!
"Don't worry, Tina is leaving right now!" I spurt out even before Bette is able to end her phonecall.
She quickly turns around with the biggest shock I have ever seen in her eyes and she realised then that I had caught her red handed.
"You'll never change."
I turn around and quickly grab my bag that I was living out of. I didn't bother to unpack it for whatever reason, but maybe I always knew that we weren't meant to last.
I quickly walk towards the door only to realise that Bette is following me.
"T, please... I'm so sorry..." She says while grabbing my wrist.
I just look at her in agony while making her let go of my wrist and continue my way to the door.
The door that would now mean the end of our future together.
"TINAAAA." She screams as a final plea.
But I didn't look back, I just kept walking.
Walking away from Bette...
Walking away from our love...
