I just stare at Bette, not knowing what to say...
Why did I want to kiss her so badly right now?
"You're my one and only, T. I can't imagine life without you."
I'd lie if I'd say that these words had no effect on me...
"You really have to leave..." I whisper... In fear of Carrie hearing our conversation, but Bette has no intention to leave and moves towards me.
Bette leans in to kiss me, but I pull away.
"I'm married, Bette... You know that."
Before I realise what's happening I get pushed aside.
"Yeah with me, puttana!"
Carrie pushes her so hard that Bette ends up falling backwards on to the ground.
I see the despair in Bettes eyes, but what could I do? She crossed a line trying to kiss me.
Bette gets up and walks towards Carrie again.
"She belongs with me. She will forever, belong with me."
I see Carries eyes fill itself with rage, but before she can do anything Bette walks away.
Carrie slams the door and lights herself a cigarette.
"Could you do that outside? You know I hate it when you smoke inside of our house."
Annoyed she walks away while saying "Just like you know I hate it when your ex is inside of our house."
I decide not to reply, cause Carrie is clearly agitated.
I couldn't believe what had just happened... After all... Shouldn't Bette be glad that the road is open for her and Felicity now?
Felicity... The name alone made me want to throw up. Felicity even has a husband! That's who Bette is though... A homewrecker. I don't know what it is... Maybe she likes a challenge? Or maybe she's just so destructive that everything that's good, she wants to destroy. Whether that be her own relationship or someone elses.
Either way, I wasn't planning on boarding that sinking ship again. The thing with Bette is that's she's so beautiful and charming that you forgive her for things that really aren't okay. Call them red flags... Well I've been burning these red flags only to be with her, the woman that I love more than anything in this world.
Bette somehow can't seem to let me go, yet she isn't able to treat me right either.
What I do know though is that Bette will forever be the love of my life, but sometimes you need to love yourself a little more. I can't live with the lies and betrayal that come with being with Bette. I can't blindly love her again. I just can't, because I will be the one who ends up with her heart broken. Again...
The buzzing of my phone wakes me from my overthinking.
"Hey mom, wanna grab lunch? x"
"Sure Ang! See you at Donna's in 30 minutes!"
I quickly take a shower and put on a pink dress with white flowers on it.
Luckily it's only a 5 minute drive.
When I arrive at Donna's I see no sign of Angie.
But then I feel a hand on my shoulder.
"Please just give me a chance to explain..."
