"I never want to speak to you again, I'm breaking up with you."
Were the last words Bette messaged me before she blocked me.
I had found out that she was still working with Jodi and that they were still very close even though Bette told me that wasn't the case.
I confronted Bette with it and of course she denied it, but the proof was laying right in front of me presented by Carrie.
I went to my Whatsapp and blocked Bette back. No more. She has had her chance to apologize.
"She doesn't love you, Tina. Not like I do." Carrie looks at me with the cutest puppy eyes and before I know it, her lips find their way on mine.
Oh god.. Her soft lips..
I was completely lost in this kiss, as if I hadn't left her for Bette. As if she wasn't addicted to drugs..
"I'm leaving tomorrow to a rehab clinic in South Africa, please stay with me tonight.."
How could I say no?
Carrie always had this effect on me, she made me feel so weak. So loved.. So special..
Exactly what I deserved..
No exes who want all of ur partners attention, no lies, no false promises.
It was just me and Carrie.
Fuck.. How could I have left her? And for what? This narcissistic liar who doesn't gives a shit about anyone but herself?
I didn't know what was a lie and what was the truth anymore, Bette had lied too much. Her love started to seem as a lie too, maybe she gets off on hurting me.
Suddenly Carrie picks me up and carries me to the bedroom...
I missed her strong arms...
Even though she didn't seem as strong anymore, she definitely hadn't lost her strength.
If anything, she seemed stronger from the adrenaline running through her veins. Our kiss had empowered her.
It had empowered me.
And for a moment it was as if nothing had changed between us.
Her soft kisses find their way from my lips to my nipples and she leaves a trace of kisses until she finally reaches my wetness..
Her tongue pleasuring me... Feels like coming home.
"Mmm... Carrie..." I softly moan.
She takes this as her cue to push two fingers inside of me, to make me moan even louder for her.
After passionately making love to each other, I lay in her arms while tracing my fingers on her chest.
I look up into her eyes and see the most beautiful smile on her face.
"I missed this, Tina. I missed us."
It felt so good to hear her say these things. She made me feel good.
"I missed you too..." I whisper.
Carrie kisses me again and then we continue our loving embrace of pure love.
We fall asleep shortly after and get waken up by her alarm.
"Hmm, what's happening? Let me sleep." I mumble.
Carrie giggles.
"God.. I missed your sleepy morning mumbles."
Carries voice wakes me completely in a second.
Fuck.
I slept with Carrie..
Carrie walks towards me and gives me a kiss on my forehead.
"I have to go now..."
I had almost forgotten that she's going to rehab today. This will help me think about what I actually want...
Or more like... Who I want.
"Please, wait for me."
