Take Me As I Am

Chapter 9

Next Day
The Next Day I Had Woke Up Man When I Say My Body Was Sooo Weak I Couldn't Even Move. Mike Wasn't In The Bed I Guessing He Is Downstairs With Rest Of Them It Was Hella Loud, I Couldn't Even Go Downstairs And See What's Going On. Then I Had To Pee Hella Bad I Straight Had To Crawl To The Bathroom. Ugh Then I Start Throwing Up, This Is The Worst Feeling Ever Just When I Heard Somebody Call My Name.
?: Jaydah?
Me: I'm In Here. Who Comes Walking Thru The Door Kerry Smh.
Kerry: You Ok
Me: Ummhmm
Kerry: I Came Up Here To Check On You Bc It Is 5:35 N I Knew You Wasn't Still Sleep.
Me: Awe Well Thanks For Checking
Kerry: Look Jaydah I'm Sorry For All The Shit I Put You Thru. This Bitch Was Talking For Hellas N Sadly I Didn't Give A Fuck I Was Cut Off When She Said
Kerry: Do You Forgive Me?
Me: Yea. I Had Rolled My Eyes Like Bitch You Wasting My Time.
Kerry: Thank You So Much, I Miss Having You As My Bestfriend.She Then Got Up Hugging Me. I Just Nodded My Head.
Kerry: I Haven't Told Nobody Yet And You Going Be The First Person I Tell Bc You Are My Bestfriend.
Me: Tell Me What?
Kerry: Well I'm BiSexual
Me: What? I Was Surprise Af But If She Came Up Here To Be My Friend Then Try To Holla At Me Hell Naw.
Kerry: Yea I Been Talking To This Girl Name Cherry For 2months She Hella Chill, She Remind Me Of You Hellas.
Me: O My I Just So Shock How Long Have You Been Liking Girls, How Did Y'all Meet?
Kerry: Tbh I Wasn't A Lesbian She Basically Turned Me Out, And I Had Went To KOD With My Friends For This Dude Melvin Birthday. We Was Having Hella Fun I Was Getting Fuck Up And Everybody Had Got A Lap Dance N I Was The Only Person Who Didn't, So You Know They Made Me Get One, I Had Got A One And I Thought It Was Over But It Wasn't. We Had Back To Melvin Hotel It Was Some Strippers With Us Including Cherry. I Had Got Real Fucked Up And Me N Her Had Sex, I Had Woke Up The Next Morning Feel Good But When I Turned Around She Was Naked An I Was Too. So I Had Tap Her She Woke Up And We Was Talking For Hellas, We Had Start Going Out To Eat Together An Shit, We End Up Having Sex Again And When We Did I Really Like It. So Since Then Me & Her Been Together.
Me: OMG I Don't Know What To Say.
Kerry: Can You Please Not Tell Nobody.
Me: I Not That's Your Business.
Kerry: Girl Wssp With That Walk, I Know That Walk Lhh
Me: Umm Whatcha Talking About Lhh. Before She Could Say Something Mike Had Came In The Room.
Mike: Thought Your Ass Was Up Here Still Sleep.
Me: Nope.
Kerry: Jaydah You Wanna Go To The Mall?
Me: Umm Idc.
Kerry: Ok It's Going Be A Girls Day.
Me: Ok Lhh
Kerry: I Will Be Downstairs
Me: Ok. When She Left Out The Room I Saw How Mike Was Looking At Me.
Me: Wth You Looking At?
Mike: Wtf Was That? Y'all Must Had Fucked Or Sum
Me: You Got Me Fuck Up N We Had Talk Everything Out.
Mike: Yea That's Good Baby, But I Got Sum I Gotta Tell You.
Me: What?
Mike: Promise Me You Won't Be Mad
Me: Can't Make No Promises Bruh
Mike: Well I Got A Daughter. When He Had Said That I Couldn't Even Think Straight.
Me: You Telling Me You Have A Daughter How Old Is She?
Mike: She 13. I Had Start Thinking I Don't Think We Was Together But Why He Waited This Long.
Me: Umm Did You Cheat On Me?
Mike: Idk, I Just Found This Out Last Week I Was Denying It Then I Had Got A DNA Test N It Had Came Back Positive.
Me: Man Idk What To Say, Who Is Your Baby Mama?
Mike: Well It's Diamond. When He Had Said That Everything In My Body Starting To Feel Weak Before I Knew It I Was Start Crying Hella Hard, I Never In My Life Cried This Hard I Guess This How It Feels To Feel Hurt.
Mike: Baby I'm Soooo Sorry. I Had Got Up In Went To The Bathroom Still Limping. When I Had Got In The Bathroom I Had Look In The Mirror.
Me: I Need To Pull Myself Together I Can't Walk Around Crying Like That Making Myself Upset I Need To Get My Mind Right. I Just Don't Know What To Do. I Had Stop Talking To Myself When I Saw Mike Opening The Door Looking At.
Mike POV
I Know I Had Fuck Up This Time. I Really Do Love Jaydah She Is My First Baby Mama, I Probably Know How She Feel Kesha And Diamond Was Nothing But Sum Thots And My Dumb Ass Turned Them Until My Baby Mama. Smh I Ashamed Of Myself Jaydah Was Suppose To Be My ONLY Baby Mama, Shit I Need To Get Shit Right Bc I Not Going Lose Her Again. So I Had Walked In The Bathroom When I Had Open The Door Jaydah Was Turning Her Hardest Not To Look At Me. So I Had Went Next To Her And Lift Her Head Up With My Hand Causing Her To Look Me Straight In My Eyes. I Had Look In Her Eyes An Saw Nothing But Hurt, I Straight Hurt My Baby Damn I Keep Fucking Up Everytime I Get Shit Right With Her I Fuck It Up.
Me: I Understand That You Hella Bad At My And Probably Never Won't To Speak To Me Again. She Had Cut Me Off.
Jaydah: I Gotta Tell You Something
Mike: Yea
Jaydah: Ok 2Days Ago I Had Sex With Antonio That's Why I Had Text Him Last Night So He Could Know That Me And Him Was Done. I Just Stand Their Looking Lost Af Like I Sat Right There And CRIED. I Never Cried Over Nobody And This Bitch Going To Tell Me That She Fuck Antonio I Didn't Know What To Say.
Me: Fr
Jaydah: Yea. She Was Crying Hella Hard. Part Of Me Wanted To Wipe Her Face And Kiss Her, While The Other Half She Wanna Say Fuck It.
Me: I Just Need To Cool Down For A Couple Days.
Jaydah POV
When He Had Said That I Really Didn't Know What To Say Or Do.
Me: Ok I Understand. I Just Lied That Fast I Didn't Fucking Understand Like We Both Had Fuck Up. I Had Grab Some Tissue Wipe My Face Fixing Myself And I Start Packing All Of My Stuff That Was In The Closet In A Suitcase. Mike Was Sitting On His Bed Crying Hella Hard He Was On The Phone, I Wonder What Had Happen?
Me: What Happen? Are You Ok? He Didn't Say Nothing, I Kept Trying To Ask Him But He Still Didn't Say Nothing I Guess That Mean He Just Won't Me Gone, So I Had Got My Shit Pack And Went An Grab Cortez Shit, He Was Pack N I Had Told Cortez To Come On. Me And Him Hurried Out The House Before Anybody Could Say Anything. I Went Back To My House I Put Our Bags In The Rooms. Laid Cortez Down In Bed Unpacking His Stuff, Then I Had Went To My Room Unpacking My Shit. Then I Felt To Sleep.
Next Morning
I Had Woke Up To 50Missed Calls And 120Text Messages. I Had Rolled Over And Check Them I Had Called The Last Person Who Called Me Back And It Was Chris.
Chris: Hello. It Sound Like He Crying
Me: You Called?
Chris: B....Big..........T........
Me: He What?
Chris: Dead. When He Had Said That Its Like Everything Begin Crushing Down On Me I Begin Flipping Out.
2 Week Later
I Haven't Talk To Mike Since I Left His House And I Know He Would Be At This Funeral, Hell Knowing Him He Will Probably Have Another Bitch With Him. I Had Got Side Track I Just Got Out The Shower I Had Put On My Long Black Pencil Skirt That Stop At My Knee, Cream Silk Shirt, Cream Red Bottoms Heels, Black Chanel Purse, I'm Had Flat Iron My Hair, I Grab My Phone, Keys, N My Purse. As I Was Walking Out The Hotel Room I Seen Cortez Walking In Front Of Me With Some Black True Religions Jeans, Burberry Collar Shirt, Black Red Bottoms Sneakers. We Had Hop In The Car Heading To His Funeral.
2hrs Later
When We Got There I Had Got Out The Car Waiting On Cortez, We Had Walk In The Funeral We Was Alittle Late When We Came Thru The Doors Everybody Look Back At Us, Then The Security Came Up To Me.
Security: Who Is You?
Me: I'm Jaydah
Security: He Told Me Some Much About You, Follow Me. Me And Cortez Was Walking Behind The Man We Had Went All The Way In The Front I Could Feel All Eyes On Us. Chris Had Went On The Stage And Start Speaking He Was Saying Sum Real Shit So I Had Put On My Shades Bc I Knew My Tears Was Finna Start Flowing. I Was Actually Good I Only Let Out A Few, Then They Start Letting Us Walk To The Body. I Had Made Cortez Stay Bc He Didn't Need To See That, I Had Got Up To Go See His Body When I Had Got Up There I Notice That Wasn't Big T And I Stand On That, That Man Didn't Look Nothing Like Him, Then I Remember That Had To Be Him Bc He Had That Tattoo On His Hand I Begin Busting Down I Couldn't Take It No More. All These Old Mans Came Helping Me Up, They Had Took Me Outside The Funeral Doors Me And Cortez They Was Talking To Me About All Shit. After About 30mins We Been Talking We Had Went Back In The Church, All Eyes Were Still On Us, But This Time People Starting Whispering, It Really Pissed Me Off Then Cortez Call My Name.
Cortez: Mommy Why Daddy Over There With That Girl. I Didn't Even Look
Me: I Don't Know Baby But You Know Mommy And Daddy Not Together No More
Cortez: I Know But Why He Brought Another Girl Here? He Was Suppose To Be Here For Us, Make Sure We Was Ok, And He Haven't Came Over Here Yet, He Saw Both Of Us Crying Really Hard You Even Felling To a The Ground And He Still Haven't Came Over N Check On Us. I Hate Him And I Don't Wanna See Him No More. I Had Looked Down At Cortez He Was Crying Hella Hard Like Boo Hoo The He Had Got Up Running Out The Church, I Had Speed Walk Outside Bc I Couldn't Run Bc I Had On Heels And Didn't Feel Like Falling. When I had Got Outside I Saw A Black Tahoe Slowed Down And Pulled Out A Gun I Then Ran To Cortez They Begin Letting Lose. We Was Laying On The Ground Cortez Was Crying Hella Hard I Could Tell He Was Scared Shiid I Was Too. I Had Look Around That Guy Had Plans On Shooting That Other Light Skin Dude Over There And He Did That Light Skin Dude Was Laying Their I Believe He Was Dead. I Had To Go Back In The Church And Tell The Pastor What Just Happen. I Had Cortez On My Shoulder I Walk Back In There Looking For The Pastor I Found Him, Ugh He Was Over There By Mike And Chris Nem. I Walked Over There.
Pastor: Everything Ok Beautiful?
Me: No
Pastor: What's Wrong?
Me: Somebody Outside Dead They Just Got Shot.
Pastor: OMG You And Your Baby Stay In Here I Will Go Find Out Who It Was. I Nodded My Head And Went To The Bathroom As I Was Walking To The Bathroom I Noticed That None Of Them Said Anything To Me, Fuck All Of Them, Me And Cortez Don't Need Them. As I Was In The Bathroom Fixing Me And Cortez Face Somebody Came In And Called My Name. I Look Up To See Kerry.
Kerry: Jaydah You Ok?
Me: Ummhmm. I Was Keeping It Short Bc I Don't Got Time.
Kerry: OMG Are You Sure?
Me: Yea, Why You Came In The Bathroom Acting Concerned But You Wasn't When I Was Out There?
Kerry: Look Here Jaydah None Of Them Like You No More Since Mike Told Them What Had Happen, Nobody Was Suppose To Talk To You But Mike Don't Know That And Mike Baby Is Not By Diamond She Lied Its By Some Girl Name Girl Vanessa. That's Who He Is Sitting Next To In There. I Was So Hurt Like Damn Really.
Kerry: I Had Came In Here Bc I Don't Care About None Of That You My Bestfriend.
Me: I Understand But Kerry That's Not Big T.
Kerry: I Know It's Hard To Believe. I Cut Her Off
Me: Me, Him, Chris, And Mike Got ROD On The Left Side Of Our Neck He Don't Have It. She Look At Me Shock.
Me: Come On So I Can Show You. She Followed Me Out And We Had Went Up To The Cast Everybody I Mean Everybody Was Looking At Us.
Me: See Look Its Not Here
Kerry: You Shoal Is Right. When We Had Said She Gave Me That Look Like She Think Sum Shit About To Go Down And I Gave Her That Same Look. Just Then It Was A Screen Projector Came On And The Lights Clicked Off, Locking Everybody In The Church, I Had Look Up At The Screen To See Big T, Wth Is Really Going On?

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