Take Me As I Am

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I Was Hella Lost Until Big T Was On The Screen Talking.
Unknown: We Have Your Little Friend Here, You Can Have His Punk Ass Back ONLY If You Bring 50k To The Old Club 1212, I Don't Won't It No Later Than 12 Awe Yea Bring Jaydah And Kerry Sexy Asses Too. I Was So Fucking Scared I Didn't Know What To Do, I Shouldn't Move. The Lights Had Came Back On And The Doors Became Unlock. I Was Really Starting To Get A Headache, Cortez Was Crying Saying He Scared And Kerry In My Other Fucking Crying Like Stfu He Said My Name Too.
Kerry: What We Going Do?
Me: We Gotta Get Big T
Kerry: What If We Go And They Already Killed Big T. I Couldn't Even Respond When I Had Saw Michael Jr Ran Up To Cortez Giving Me A Big Hug. I Had Look Back at Kerry With The Wtf Look.
Kerry: Guess You Can't Keep Brothers Away From Each Other. I Nodded My Head Until That Mike Was Walking Towards Them.
Mike: Wsp Cortez, Daddy Miss You
Cortez: Idk Why Bc I Don't Miss You. When He Had Said That I Couldn't Do Nothing But Laugh. Like Nigga My Baby Saw Everything And You Just Think He Going Let Shit Ride Smh.
Mike: Cortez I Love You And I Really Miss You, Why You Treating Me Like This?
Cortez: I Just Wanna Ask You One Question.
Mike: Yea
Cortez: Why You Did My Mama Like That? She Really Had Made A Bad Decision But You Did Too Why Y'all Couldn't Just Work It Out? Then You Said That You Love Me And Miss Me. That Was A Lie, It Hurt My Feelings You Straight Seen My Mama And Me Break Down At This Funeral And You Didn't Move Or Nothing. I Thought You Was Going Keep Us Safe, I Thought I Was We Was Your Pride And Joy, I Thought You Said That You Will Always He Here For Us. What Happen? You Know What I Don't Wanna Hear None Of That Lame Stuff You Finna Say. You Hurt Me And My Mama And I Will NEVER Forget This, Stay Away From Us, Go Back Over There With Your Family. When Cortez Said That I Was Shock Af Like Damm Baby, I Look And I Seen Tears Coming Down His Face My Baby Was Hurt, Which Made Me Start Crying. I had Look Up At Mike He Was Crying Hella Hard On His Knees.
Me: Kerry Call Me When You Finna Go Up To Club 1212.
Kerry: I'm Coming With You. I Just Nodded My Head I Saw How Diamond Nem Gave Her That Death Glare And I Didn't Really Give Af. I Pick Cortez Up, Yes He Was Still Crying We Was Walking Out The Church To My Car. I Had Put Cortez In The Back Seat Then I Had Start Driving Back To The Hotel That We Was Staying At. When I Got There I Parked And Grab Cortez, Kerry Was Just Following Me. When I Had Got In The Hotel Room I Put Cortez In The Bed He Went Straight To Sleep. I Then Came Back In The Living Room And I Sat Next To Kerry. We Was Seating Quite Af. I Was Thinking About Everybody That I Been Thru, Then I Start Hella Hard, Kerry Had Grab Me In To A Hug.
Me: Kerry What I Do Wrong? Why Is God Punishing So Bad. I Said Between Crying.
Kerry: Baby God Only Give You Obstacles That You Can Handle, If He Don't Think You Can't Handle Them He Won't Give Them To You.
Me: Well I Can't Handle This My Life Is Getting Fuck Up I'm Starting To Realize Why I On This Earth? Why I'm Still Here?
Kerry: God Bring Everybody In Your Life They Either A Blessing Or A Lesson, And You Have A Mf Son That's Who You Living For If You Ever Think About Leaving This World Cortez Will Be Lost Without You He Really Loves You And I Do To, Hunny It's Not Worth I'm Telling You, I Know Mike Did Some Hurtful Shit To But Look What The Outcome Is You Got A Beautiful Son That Loves You. You Need To Be Strong For Him, He Can't See You All Sad And Crying Everyday, You Gotta Be Strong.We Need You Boo.
Me: Ok Ima Try My Best, Thank You I Need That, I Love You Bestfriend. I Said While Giving Her A Hug.
Kerry: I Love You Too And Ima Be Here For You Always. We Got Interrupted When Kerry Phone Start Ringing.
Kerry: Hello
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Kerry: Fr?
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Kerry: That's Good
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Kerry: iight We Good
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Kerry: Awe Ok That's Cool
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Kerry: We At Hamilton Suites
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Kerry: Room 565
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Kerry: Bye. Hanging Up Her Phone
Me: Who Was That?
Kerry: Umm That Mike And They Got Big T
Me: Kerry Really I Don't Wanna See Them Or Them Bitches That's With Him.
Kerry: I Know Jaydah But Look Just Listen To What He Gotta Say.
Me: I Will Try. We Was Cut Off When I Had Look Down To See That Antonio Had Text Me.
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Tonio😑❤️👿: Wsp You Good Bae?
Me: Bae? But Yea I'm Good
Tonio😑❤️👿:Stop Acting Brand New But Imy I Wanna Come See You Like Now. First I Was Thinking Hell Naw But Then I Thought Hell Why Not Mike Two Can Play That Game.
Me: Sure You Can Come
Tonio 😑❤️👿: Yes!!! Wya And What's The Address
Me: Hamilton Suited Room 565.
Tonio😑❤️👿: Ok Omw. When He Had Said That I Decide To Go Change I Had Went To The Closet I Had Grab Me Sum Black Leggings, Black Nike V Neck, Black Foams, And I Put My Hair In A Pony Tail You Never Know. As I Was Finna Walk Out Kerry Came In There.
Kerry: Can I Borrow Sum I Need To Comfortable?
Me: Yea Girl It's In The Closet. I Had Went In The Other Room Where Cortez Was Sleep. I Softly Tap Him Causing Him To Wake Up.
Cortez: Mommy I'm Trying To Go To Sleep.
Me: That's Ok Baby But You Need Put On Your Pjs.
Cortez: Ugh Ok Mommy. He Had Got Up Took Off His Clothes And Put On His Versace Pjs, Then He Had Gave Me A Kiss And Climb Back In The Bed. I Had Got Up N Kiss His Forehead And Said That I Love Him And I Had Walked Out Closing His Door. As I Was Leaving Out The Room I Saw Kerry She Girl Had On Some Black Leggings, Black Nike Shirt With Neon Nike Sign, With My Neon Forces On, With Her Hair In A Bun.
Me: Look Like You Finna Fight.
Kerry: You Never Know. We Both Start Laughing And We Had Turned On The Tv Until They Came.
Kerry: Jaydah Can I Call Over Cherry
Me: Idc Girl.
Kerry: Ok Thank You. She Had Start Texting On Her Phone.
25mins Later
Cherry Had Came In Like 10mins Ago Her And Kerry Ass Been Kissing And Shit, I Couldn't Even The Tv Thru All That Moaning And Shit, I Believe I Was Getting Annoyed Bc I Was Horny But Idk Why Tho. I Was Disturb From My Thoughts When Somebody Knock At My Door.
Me: Go Get It, My Legs Hurt. I Was Looking At Kerry With My Puppy Dog Face.
Kerry: Fine But Bitch You Getting It Next Time. She Had Got Up And Open The Door. Thank God It Was Antonio. He Had Came And Start Kissing All On My Neck I Kno He Left A Hickey, Then He Start Kissing My Lips I Didn't Kiss Him Back It Just That I Wasn't Feeling Him At All, I Was Horny But It Just Felt Worried Af.
Antonio: Wssp With You I Can't Get A Kiss Back?
Me: I'm Not Feeling Good. I Lied.
Antonio: Poor Ba. Before He Could Finish Somebody Knock On The Door.
Me: Can You Go Get The Door?
Antonio: Ok. He Had Came Back From The Door With A Smirk On His Face I Was Lost, Until I Saw Mike He Look Antonio Up N Down Then He Had Look At Me I Gave Him The Dirtiest Look Ever And Rolled My Eyes. Then This Nigga Going Sit Next To Me Like Wtf. It Was That Bitch Chris Walking In, I Had Rolled My Eyes Hella Hard. Then I Saw Big T, I Ain't Going Stunt I Had Ran N Jump Up On Him, Like He Was My Man.
Me: I Miss You Nigga, I Straight Thought Sum Happen To You.
Big T: I Know Big Head Imy Too, Where My Lil Nigga At? I Had Got Down Off Him
Me: He In The Room Sleep.
Big T: Dang I Was Going Surprise Him
Me: You Still Can
Big T: iight I Will Be Back. When He Had Walk Off To Cortez Room I Had Went To Sit Back On The Couch. Then I Seen Cherry Just a Staring At Me.
Me: What?
Cherry: You Not Going Introduce Me To Your Friends.
Me: Awe Yea Cherry That's Antonio, Mike, Chris, And Big T.
Antonio: Wsp With It
Chris: Wssp.
Mike: *nods head*
Kerry: Well Sooooo We All Here To Talk Shit Out Soo.
Antonio: So Mike Why You Acting Weird? When I Say Mike Had Mugged Antonio Soooo Damn Hard I Got Scared.
Kerry: Lhh Mike Where Vanessa, Kesha, Diamond, Kyle, N Rest Of Them Go?
Mike: You Don't See Them So That Means They Gone Right. Mike Had A Bad Ass Attitude Problem.
Kerry: I Didn't Fuck You Last Night So You Can Gone With That Fucking Attitude Dude.
Chris: Aye Bruh Chill Lhh
Antonio: Naw Bruh He Caught Attitude For No Reason. When Antonio Said That I Saw Mike Was Finna Get Up But Chris Said Sum.
Chris: Look Here Lil BITCH Nobody Was Fucking Talking To You Before He Could Finish Mike Finish It For Him.
Mike: So The Best Thing To Do Is STFU Or We Going Have ALOT Of Problems. Mike Said Mugging The Shit Outta Him.
Antonio: Aye Y'all Got Me Fuck Up. When He Had Said That Mike And Chris Got Up Kerry And Cherry Grab Chris While I Had Push Mike In To The Bathroom Lord Must Had Came Down And Gave Me Extra Strength Bc I Had Him At First. When We Had Got In The Bathroom I Had Close The Door Behind Us.
Mike: Aye Fr You Need To Check Your Lil Boyfriend Before He Gets Fuck Up
Me: Yea Yea Yea Whatever Dude And That's Not My Boyfriend.
Mike: Lhh Well Shiid Whatever He Is You Betta Tell Him About Me Bc He Must Not Know.
Me: I Betta Not Do Shit.
Mike: You Tf You Yelling At?
Me: I'm Fucking Yelling At You, You The Only Mf That's In Front Of Me.
Mike: Aye Fr Lil Girl You Need Change That Tone. When He Had Said That It Was Sexy Af To Me.
Me: Whatever Nigga, Now Why You Had To Come With Big T?
Mike: Bc I Can Do Whatever Tf I Won't Any More Questions?
Me: Look Here Mike Idk Who Made You Mad But YOU Got The Wrong Mf.
Mike: Smh You Got Big Balls Now
Me: Been Had These Fuck You Mean. I Was Cut Off When His Phone Went Off, He Had Grab It Out His Pocket And It Was Some Girl Name Sandy. Sandy 👄👅🍆: Where You At?
Mike: I'm Out
Sandy👄👅🍆: Imy Daddy, I Won't You NOW
Mike: I'm Call You When I Lea. I Had Snatch His iPhone 6+ Out His Hand. I Couldn't Just Sit There I Ain't Going Lie I Was Hella Jealous.
Mike: Why You Took My Shit. He Tried Grab It But Fail.
Me: Bc It's Rude To Be Texting While I'm Talking.
Mike: Jaydah Man Whatever Just Give Me My Shit Back.
Me: Why So You Can Text Sandy Back And Tell Her That You Going Come Fuck Her After You Leave?
Mike: Didn't Know You Care
Me: I Really Don't. He Tried To Reach For His Phone Again But Failed.
Me: Oooo You Gotta Be More Quicker Than That Lhh.
Mike: Come On Man. I Had Went To Text Her Back.
Me: I'm Over My Baby Mama House
Sandy👄👅🍆: Awe Let Me Know When You Leave
Me: I Not Coming Over There
Sandy👄👅🍆: Why Not Daddy 😔
Me: Bc Man I'm With My Baby Mama I'm Not Finna Cheat On Her, I'm Done With You
Sandy👄👅🍆: What? I Suppose To Be Who You Come Home To, You Said That You Love
Me: I Don't Remember Saying That But Man Just Leave You Wasn't Nothing But A Thot You Suck Me Up When I Say So And Fuck When I Say So.
Sandy👄👅🍆: Really Mike I Love You
Me: Bye Thot You Ain't Nothing More Than A Thot So Goodbye Bitch 👋, You Stupid Af For Catching Feelings I Told You I Had A Baby Mama Who I'm In Love With, Stupid Ass Lil Girl😂😂😂. Before I Could Press Send Mike Told The Phone From Me.
Mike: Man Wtf. I Could Tell He Was Mad
Me: Give It Back
Mike: Hell Naww This Is My Phone. I Act Like I Wasn't Tripping Off It, He Kept Talking Then I Had Press Send.
Mike: Bruh Wtf Is Wrong With You?
Me: Now You Know Not To Fuck With Me, My Son, And My Heart.
Mike: I Don't Play About My Son, You Wrong N I Never Fuck With Your Heart, But You I Ain't Going Lie I Fuck The Shit Outta You.
Me:Ugh Make Me Sick.
Mike:,Yea Whatever. He Then Look Me In My Eyes I Had Hurried Up And Look Away Until.
Mike: You Gotta Hickey? He Was Touching All On My Neck.
Me: Whatcha See Dumb Ass
Mike: Lhh Who Gave It To You?
Me: My Boyfriend Why?
Mike: Bc He Finna Be Mad Bitch I'm Finna Add Some More. When He Had Said That He Had Grab My Close To Him Squeezing My Ass Then He Start Kissing, Sucking, Bitting, Licking On My Neck. I Was Moaning Bc It Felt So Good. He Had Pulled Away From Me.
Mike: You Miss Daddy?
Me: Nope
Mike: Fooled Me
Me: Lhh
Mike: Well Daddy Miss You. He Went To Lips Finna Get My A Kiss But He Stop Leaving Me Looking Stupid With My Lips Out.
Mike: You Said You Didn't Miss Me
Me: OMG Mike I Miss You, Now Come On. He Start Laughing Then He Had Picked Me Grabbing My Ass Squeezing It Hella Then He Start Kissing Me, Our Tongues Were Fighting. The Kiss Felt Sooo Good Damn I Miss Mike, I Guess It's Nobody Like Your First Love. No Matter How Bad They Do You, You Will Always Have A Place In Your Heart For Them. Mike Had Bite My Lip Hella Hard.
Me: Mike Wtf
Mike: That's For You Trying To Leave Daddy. I Not Going Lie I Was Crazy In Love With Him. He Had Start Biting Me Neck Hard I Know This Nigga Was Leaving Marks. We Was Making Out About A Good 2hrs Then We Had Went Back In The Living Room. When We Walk Back In I Honestly Forgot All About Antonio. I Had Sat Down Then Had Sat Down. Everybody Start Watching Tv Until.
Antonio: Jaydah I Know Damn Well You Ain't Got No Damn Hickey? Walking Up To Me Looking At My Neck. I Didn't Say Nothing, Before I Knew It Antonio Had Punched The Shit Out Of Mike. OMG Shit Finna Get Real.

Picture Of Jaydah On Cover