Take Me As I Am

Safe Or Not

I Hop Up Out My Bed Went In The Bathroom Use The Restroom, Wash My Hands, Wash My Face, Brush My Teeth, Flat Iron My Hair Straight. Walk To My Closet N Put On Some All White Huaraches, Yellow Robin Jeans, White Crop Top, Put On My Gold Rolex. Grab My Yellow MCM Cross Body, N Put On My Yellow MCM Hat. Walk Out The Room N Walk In Where Zyriah Was At.

Me: Hey Mommy Baby. I Said Smiling Picking Her Up.

Zyriah: Hi Mowmma. She Said Smiling Showing All Gums.

Me: You Ready To Go ?

Zyriah: Bye Bye ?

Me: Yea Bye Bye. I Said Kissing Her Cheek.

Zyriah: Yay !! She Said Clapping.

We Walk To One Of Her Bags N I Pick Out Her Some White True Religions Shorts, White Huaraches, Burberry Shirt. I Had Put Some Baby Lotion In Her Hair, She Have Good Hair So It's Just Curly All Over. I Pack Up Her Diaper Bag Then We Exit Out The Room To The Kitchen.

John Was On The Couch On His Phone With Just His Boxers On. His 6 Pack Was Popping, God Lee He Look Good.

John: Where Y'all Finna Go?

Me: We Going Shopping With The Girls.

John: O Joe Em Not Going?

Me: Umm ...... YeaThey Coming.

John: So You Wasn't Going Ask Me If I Wanted To Come ?

Me: I Thought You Had Work. I Said Rolling My Eyes.

John: Ummhmm. He Said Picking Up Zyriah.

John: Hey Riah Riah. He Said Kissing All Over Her Face.

Zyriah: Dadda. She Said Smiling Extra Hard.

John: You Going Bye Without Me ? He Said Looking Sad.

Zyriah: No. She Said Slobbing All Over His Face Trying Kiss Him.

John: You Slob All Over Daddy, Now I Gotta Clean Myself Up, Be Right Back.

Zyriah: Noooo. She Said Crying

John: What's Wrong ?

Me: She Clearly Wanna Go With You.

John: Come On Riah That's Go. He Said Grabbing Her Hand Going To The Back.

Me: Ugh Guess He Coming Too. I Said Sitting Down On The Couch Getting On Instagram.

2hr Later

Me: John Bring Your Ass !!! I Yelled He Had Me Waiting Forever.

John: Shut Up I'm Coming. He Said Walking In The Living Room With A Sleep Zyriah.

Me: See It Took You So Long She Fell To Sleep. I Said Grabbing My Purse, Walking Out The Door Leaving It Open For Him.

John: Jack Ass Can You At Least Grab Her Diaper Bag. He Said Standing Next To Me Waiting On The Elevator.

I Grab The Diaper Bag Then I Look At Him He Had On A Burberry Collar Shirt, White Robin Jeans, Red Bottoms, He Had His Earrings In, Custom Made All Red Rolex.

John: You See Sum You Like. He Said Smirking.

Me: You Wish. I Said Stepping In The Elevator N Damn It Was Crowded.

We Had To Stand All The Way In The Back, It Smelled Like Armani Cologne Mix With Nicki Minaj Perfume Mix With Old People Spray, I Swear I Have A Headache. Then I See This White Lady Flirting With John PAUSE✋. She Was Just Laughing Kept Touching His Arms. On The Other Side Of Me Was This Ugly Ass Dude That Kept Trying To Talk To Me, God Please Help Me. I Had Cleared My Throat, Everybody On The Elevator Look At Me.

Me: What!! I Said Getting Irritated.

They All Just Turn Around Slowly Whispering Something. John Had Grab My Hand N I Look Up At Him, He Smile N I Smiled Back. I Stood On My Tippie Toes N Peck His Lips. He Licked His Lips Then He Put His Head Down N Peck My Lips Like 4 Times. I Smile N About Time We Was Finish The Elevator Just Open To The Lobby, Thank You Lord. We Let The Old Folks Go First Then We Got Out Walking To John Car Hand To Hand. He Unlock His Doors To His Flat Black Mercedes G Wagon. He Strap Zyriah In Her Car Seat, I Hop On The Passenger Side. John Came In N Got In Start The Car Up Then We Was On Our Way To The Mall.

2hrs Later

We Finally Arrive To The Mall, I Had Got Out The Car Grabbing My Phone. John Had Grab Zyriah Out The Backseat N We Walk Inside The Mall.

John: Where They Say They Was At ?

Me: Umm She Said Saks.

John: We'll We Going The Wrong Way. He Said Standing By The Escalator Holding Zyriah Hand.

Me: Awe. I Said Walking Behind Him.

We Had Walk Pass Buckle N I Saw Vanessa Her Son N MIKE DAUGHTER. Then It Hit Me Vanessa She's Mike Baby Mama That's Where I Know Her From. Vanessa Had Called John Name He Had Walk Over There. I Walk Off Trying To Find Buckle. He Stupid Af If He Thought I Was Going Sit And Wait On Him Df. I Was Just Walking Until I Finally Buckle. I Walk Inside Walking Over To Paris Em. On My Way Over There Somebody Was Calling Out My Name, I Turned Around N Saw Mike, Chris, Big T, N Cortez. I Walk Over To Them.

Me: Hey Y'all, Hey Baby. I Said Kissing All Over Cortez.

Big T: Wsp Long Time No See. He Said Hugging Me.

Chris: You Looking Good. He Said Hugging Me.

Mike: She Shoal Do. He Said Hugging Me.

I Was Talking To Them For A Nice Lil Minute Then Me N Mike Was Staring At Each Other, I Hurried Up N Look Away One Thing I Can Say Mike Be A lot Of Things But He Not A Bad Daddy Nor Ugly. I Gave Them All Hugs Then I Went Over To Irritated Paris.

Me: Sorry It Took Me So Long. I Said Looking At The True Religions.

Paris: Ummhmm. She Said Picking Up The Pink True Religion Shirt.

April: Hey Boo. She Said Hugging Me.

Trisha: Girl Where My Baby At ?

Me:She With John.

Trisha: Awe They All At The Food Court.

Paris: Ok Let Me Pay For Theses Jeans Then We Can Leave. She Said Walking Away.

We Nodded N Start Back Talking, We Left Out Buckle N Went To The Food Court When We Got Down There I Start Feeling Sick. We Sat Down Next To The Guys, I Was Really Feeling Like Shit So I Put My Head Down On The Table. Before Anybody Could Say Something I Rush To The Bathroom N I Throw Up. I Wash My Mouth Off, Run Some Water In Mouth, Grab Some Gum Out My Purse Then I Walk Out The Bathroom Back To The Table.

John: You Ok ? He Said Looking Sad.

Me: No. I Said Lowly

Joe: You Look Sick.

David: Are You Pregnant ?

Me: No I'm On The Pill N I Have My Tubes Tied.

Trisha: You Wanna Go Home ?

Me: Yea.

Trisha: Ok Come On. She Said Standing Up Grabbing Her Purse N Keys.

John: I Will Take You Home.

Trisha: Naw I Will I Was Finna Go Anyway.

John: No I Thin

Me: John She Can Just Take Me I Will Let You Know When I Get Home.

John: Ok Call Me Soon As You Get In The House. He Said Kissing My Lips.

We Had Walk Off Heading To The Car Garage Where Trisha Park At. I Heard Somebody Call My Name I Turned Around Then Everything Went Black. WTF .

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