Sweet Blasphemy (Andy Biersack)

We Were Meant To Be, Supposed To Be, But We Lost It | Chapter 7

I just don't know what to do. I still love Danny. I loved him for 8 fucking years! He made me want to die, he made me want to live. He's arrogant, a jerk. He's a total asshole. I don't know why I still love him. I haven't seen him in years, but i guess i never really was over him.

Now Andy. I never knew I could fall so hard for someone. But it seems impossible that he hurt me more than Danny. But it feels like did. He left, never talked to me, never broke up with me so he cheated on me multiple times.

But he made me happy. Ecstatic. Like I was on euphoria. But it's been three years since I've seen him. It breaks my heart but. I don't think I can be with him again.

I wiped my eyes and got out of my bunk. I reeked of alcohol. I grabbed another pair of skinnies and a cut up Asking Alexandria shirt. I had a shower and then I got dressed. I left my hair down.

I grabbed my phone and walked out of the tour bus. I pulled my phone out and texted Ashley.

'Were does this guy want to meet?'

'Come to the tour bus?'

'No, just tell him I'll be by the tree. The only tree by the tour busses.'

I typed and started walking over to the shady tree. I sat down in the shade and I started humming some of my songs. Then full on singing them. "When were together we drift away. Often out of sight. We feel things that we can't explain, of we try hard we just might."

I started tapping my foot. "Shake, Shake, baby, on and on, were gonna break, break, break on out. Shake Shake, baby, on and on, were gonna break break break on out. Sweep me, take me back to the beginning, the night when we first met. Don't think that you'd keep a secret. Your not close enough to hear it. The night when we first met."

I sang then I heard clapping. I stopped and looked up to see Andy. He gave me a warm smile and hesitantly sat down beside me. "You wanted to talk." I said coldly.

"Well, yeah. We have to." I turned to him. "We don't have to." I said. "Yes! We do Juliet." When he called me that it shot down my spine. "Your hurting, I know you are." And we stayed silent for awhile.

"You look different." Last time Andy saw me. I had long red and black hair. I was also skinnier. Now I'm a healthy weight, short blonde hair, and I got way more tattoos. "Yeah, well it's been three years."

We sat in silence again for a while my eyes caught sight of a silver necklace around Andy's neck. My hand ended up touching mine. Our necklaces. "You still have yours." Andy said with a small smile. I gave him a smile back.

"Yeah, well it was birthday present." I said thinking back to my 18th birthday. The day was spent getting drunk and things but when Andy gave me my present. My thumb rubbed over my hand. Over the tattoo.

It was gone. I have been covering it up with makeup since he left. "You got your tattoo removed?" He asked looking at his. "No...I just cover it up. It was hard looking at it...after.." I said he nodded. It was silent again for a good few minutes.

"Did you just forget, or do you really not remember?" She asked "Juliet. I'm sorry. I was going crazy without you, and I made so many regrets. I almost died being away from you."

"I...I was drunk and walking around...I was over all the stupid black out drunk nights. And being away from you. All within the first year. I was walking in the middle of the road when I saw a car coming, I didn't care. I missed you so bad. And it hit me."

I stiffened up. "I was in a coma for two weeks. My phone was totally and I had lost your number. Also most of my memory of you. The guys never talked about you or me having a girlfriend. So I had a few one night stands. Then a girlfriend for less than two months. This was two years ago."

He said looking at me then continuing. "I got all my memory of you back last year. I had already broken up with that girl and I looked for you. I couldn't find you anywhere, and the guys wouldn't tell me anything."

"I searched and searched for you Jessica James. But now I see you use your middle name more for a first name now." He said with a sad chuckle. I wiped my makeup off my hand and my tattoo shone through. It was more beautiful than I remember.

"I haven't seen this tattoo in years," I said wiping it all off. "Juliet. I love you." He said grabbing my hands. I pulled them away. "Andy. I don't know. Umm, you remember Danny right? Not the one we went to school with. Danny Wornsnop." He nodded.

"He and Matt good were my childhood friends before they moved." So he was the friend Ben couldn't remember. "Yeah, well. He was the Danny I dated back in high school."

"What! And he's on warped. Have you talked to him?" I nodded. "He said he still loves me." Andy tensed. "I still have feelings for him...but they were never as strong as my feelings for you." He shook his head.

"You shouldn't forgive me." I looked at him confused. "Juliet. I put you through hell. I cheated. I left you." He said looking at my arms. If I hadn't cut since he left there'd be almost just white faded lines. But there were ones from last year. So there weren't faded well as the others.

"Andy. I'm forgiving you. It's too late. I'm not changing my mind." I said looking at him. "Juliet. I'm a monster, I'm not good for you." "Andy. I'm a disaster. And that's why were perfect for each other." I said grabbing his hand.

Our tattoos right beside each other. I looked up at him and he was staring back at me with those blue mesmerizing eyes. I could have almost forgotten we'd spent the last three years apart. He was leaning in.

I pulled away and sighed. "I forgive you Andy. But I can't forget. And as much as I want to kiss you I can't...I don't want to kiss you and then have you leave again." He grabbed my chin and faced me to him.

"Kiss me.." He whispered. "I'm not ever leaving you again." He said leaning closer and closer. I was hesitant at first. Andy's been gone. I've learned to live without him. But I kissed him.

He pulled away from our bittersweet moment and grabbed my necklace and his. "We will be like these two once again." He said and I looked down at our necklaces. 'Andy' and 'Juliet' written with silver.

"I love you too Andy." And I kissed him with everything I had. Lust, want, dispare, desire, everything. "I. Fucking. Missed. You" I said staring at him. He pulled me into a hug. "I've missed you more." I pulled away.

"Don't you ever do that again. Also. Don't make me regret forgiving you so soon either." I said getting up.

A/N Juliet forgave Andy. Did she do it too soon? But she loves Andy. So it wouldn't matter right? Their in love. But guise....you know me. Nothing nice last forever :3 mwahahaha.

During warped ALLOT of shits going down..maybe not allot but for me ITS ALLOT.