Sweet Blasphemy (Andy Biersack)

Not Broken Yet | Chapter 20

It's been two months since I told Andy about the baby I aborted. We've gone back to being a couple. Actually we've gotten way stronger and it's almost like in high school.

Of course the first month was hard. I couldn't really face Andy without thinking that I don't deserve him or that I don't deserve him to forgive me. Also it was hard telling The others I had a abortion.

They all were supportive and at first some couldn't believe how I could do that. Jenna actually ignored me for a week. But were on good terms now, she was just really upset she wouldn't be a aunty.

I had also went to a therapist two times a week cause they all found out I had relapsed super bad and, personally. I don't think I even needed to go, I only went so they would worry less I guess.

I don't know, it's sorta helped but I knew everything she told me.

I was looking myself in the mirror. I had only on my underwear and bra. I kept turning sideways and was examining my belly. I'm crazy. I'm not pregnant. We had sex twice these past two months. And we used protection. I heard Andy come in the front door downstairs.

I ran to my closet and slipped on a shirt and shorts. I pulled my hair Into a bun, it was really long now. My hair. I walked downstairs and Andy was just getting into the kitchen. I sneaked up behind him and followed him all the way.

He still hadn't noticed me then I jumped onto his back and giggled. "Woah! Juliet." He said letting laughed escape his mouth. "What's for supper?" I asked kissing his cheek. I felt his cheek move Into what I'm guessing was a smirk.

"How about we have some chicken and potatoes." He teased. He knows I don't eat meat. It's been almost a year since I've turned into a vegetarian. But it wasn't my dislike for meat that sent me scrabbling off Andy's back and running to the bathroom.

I unloaded my stomach and well it's a good thing my hair was up. I felt a hand on back rubbing it. I flushed the toilet and wiped my mouth. "Oh god." I said grabbing the mouth wash and gargling it.

I spit it out. "What was that? Dragonfly, are you getting the flu." Andy asked worry laced with his words. I shook my head, god I really hope I'm not pregnant. I know how that sounds but. Me and Andy lost a baby, I may have aborted it but we consider it to be still one of our children and it was hard.

And i don't think I'm ready or even Andy.

"Jessica?" Oh god. I really hate it when he says my name, he wants the truth. "I..May, or may NOT be pregnant." I said letting the words rush out. I kept my gaze down to the ground.

"What?" I looked up to Andy's face. His eyes were brimming with tears and he looked so broken and excited? Worried and nervous? "I'm..I'm gonna be a father." I nodded then I spoke up. "I don't know, I never too a test but my stomach is bigger and well I've been throwing up." I said

Andy grabbed my hands and laced them with his. "This is great. I hope your pregnant." He said smiling and kissing me. "Your not...mad?" I asked Andy's facial expression went softer. "I know...when we lost Alice was distant and angry. But that's the past now. I love Alice and you, I will love this baby just as much."

I let a few tears fall. We haven't talked about Alice. The baby I aborted. It was a girl and that was the name we had chosen. I felt Andy wipe the tears away and place a kiss on my head.

I looked up at him, my eyes scanning over a tattoo. Andy had gotten one for Alice 'Alice 07/15/15'. "How about we go see a doctor tomorrow and see if you are." He said. I nodded and he pulled me into a hug.

"How about we just have take out."

A/N two month jump and already Juliet might be pregnant again.