Sweet Blasphemy (Andy Biersack)

Theres A Place For Me Somewhere Out There | Chapter 15

I rolled over and starred up at the ceiling. I lifted my arm up and examined all he old scars and the new ones. I saw Andy's body beside me. I crawled out of bed and looked around. Why am I here?

I walked down stairs and looked around. I don't belong here. This isn't my home, nor would it be 'our' home. I'm just not feeling like I'm needed. Sure Andy and I found each oh here again, but it was in high school that we were madly in love with each other.

Maybe this was just not meant to be. That this was just a high school love. Nothing that should've lasted longer.

I was holding a picture of me and Andy up a few days after we met. I gave a smile smile then I felt two arms go around me. I put the picture back and I turned around and backed away. "Juliet..?" Andy said trying to look at my face.

Truth is I don't want him to. Ever since we first met, one look and he could read me. Only he, could ever have one look and know something is wrong. "Umm, Andy." I said grabbing the hand he had placed on my cheek. "We have to talk."

I said looking at him. His eyes scanned my face, and his face softened and he nodded. I led him to the couch and we sat down me he waited. I honestly don't know what I'm doing. I am happy here? Right. I'm just upset is all right?

I tried to look everywhere but at Andy. "I..I..think..I'm going to move out..move back into..the ATL house.." I said finally meeting his eyes. He leaned back. And it looked like he broke into pieces in front of me. I sat up. "I just think, we might've been moving too fast."

"But Juliet. We've been living together since we've been together. The first week we knew each other. I basically lived with you. When we found each other. You basically lived with me all summer." He spoke. "Andy..." He stood up.

"NO! Your leaving again. This is like graduation all over again." It was my turn to stand up. "ME! Leaving. I'm just going to be living a few blocks away! And you! Were the one who was leaving for a year. I went to collage for my career." "And then dropped out." He said snapping at me.

"YOU KNOW WHAT. I DONT KNOW WHAT YOUR PROBLEM IS. I only wanted us to take things slow. I wasn't breaking up with you!" I said shoving him a little. "AND YOU DIDNT EVEN BREAKUP WITH ME. YOU CHEATED AND CHEATED ON ME. ALL THOSE YEARS!" He shoved me slightly back.

"I HAD A CAR ACCIDENT NOT MY FAULT." He said. Then he just stopped. "You know what. Why don't you go do what you always go back to." And he held up his arm and showed me his wrists. Clean of course. "YOU ASSHOLE. don't you dare forget. You did this as well!" I said showing him my wrist.

"I remember clearly. The day you showed me yours! So don't you dare act all high and fucking mighty." I said shoving past him. I walked up to the room. "Where you think your going!" He yelled at me following me. "I'm moving out I said." I said getting my clothes out of the drawers. "No your not."

And he grabbed me by the waist and I tried to fight him off but his Ames snaked around me, I turned around and his lips were on mine. I snaked my hands in his hair and I clawed at his bare back. His mouth moved to my neck and he bit me.

I moaned and scratched him. We soon fell on the bed. Both of us aggressively trying to take the others clothes off. We fought for dominance allot. Need to say it was hot and angry.

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I watched the mirror across from the bed. My hand was playing with Andy's hair which was on my chest and the other I held a cigarette with. "I love you." Andy spoke turning around and taking a puff from my cigarette.

"I love you to." I replied. "You know. I am moving still." He sighed. "I kinda figured. But I know now. You'll only be few blocks away and well still be able to see each other." He said kissing my arm. "You finally understand." I joked. "I was just afraid I'd be losing you again." He said sadly.

Awee. Andy. "Babe..your not losing me, ever." I said bending and placing a kiss to his nose.

He smiled. "Good." And he grabbed my hand and played with our tattoos that we had on our hands. I smiled down at him and my other hand wandered to my necklace. 'Andy' I peeked down at Andy's. 'Juliet'

I nudged my leg. Which was under his heads so he looked at me. "Let's go get some tattoos?"

A/N when I was writing this. I was planning on having Andy and Juliet break up...BUT I remembered this one Jalex I read once. And Alex and Jack were fighting and it turned into hot gay angry smut. The best. And I kinda thought that way would be better. So yeaaa.