Never let me go - cate blanchett x rooney mara

air

Rooney pov:

The meeting took forever, it wasn't like I'm not interested in it, no not at all I was so exited to finally work on this project after all this time, I was just exhausted from all the talking and the informations I had to get in my head.
Cate teased me and I had butterflies in my stomach all the time, she was just amazing and so astonishing with her whole presence, and then she was teasing me, I MEAN CATE BLANCHETT TEASES ME LIKE WTF?! I sort of always felt so comfortable when she was with me, It's like her feelings immediately flow into me, her calmness when she spoke and the happiness in her laughter. She was just amazing and I was still freaked out that I would work with her and be her lover after all.

We all stood up from where we sat to say our goodbyes to everyone, I started with Todd and he gave me a warm hug. I then continued with Cate when she suddenly brushed her lips on my ear and whispered:

"How about the two of us wait inside here for a few minutes afterwards?"

I just blushed and I felt Sarah's gaze creeping up on me when she finally said bye to me too.

"Don't get fucked yet, alright?"

"mhhm I'll try."

Sarah pulled away with a giggle and a slight smirk on her lips.

Suddenly everyone left the room and Cate and I were left there alone, I immediately tensed up. I guess the emotion copying only works once other people are around because Cate was visibly comfortable leaning on the closed door behind her.

"So what was that?"

Cate was the first to speak up.

"Uhm what was what?"

"Mhm I don't know maybe you taking the control earlier?"

"I'm sorry?!"

"Well I think it's clear that I am the top here."

I just stayed silent. I was also shocked with what she exactly said. She wasn't mad at the teasing but that I took control at one point? She now slowly walked across the room to where I stood.

"I think you better suppress that top energy of yours or you'll find yourself in a... how should I say... more interesting state."

She had a huge teasingly smile on her face, she looked down at me, there was a little height difference, and she watched me having a gay painc over her in front of her. All I could do to seem alive was clearing my voice.

" Uhm yes I think I understood that."

"You can go now sweetheart."

The sweetheart also made me freeze.

"What are you standing there for?"

"Oh yeah bye-"

I tried to rush out as fast as I could but she carefully grabbed me at my arm.

"I don't get a hug?"

I rushed back towards her and gave her a small hug, only to leave the room quickly and go back to my apartment.

When I finally arrived there I was relieved, being back at my apartment, everything is silent, no one can disturb me anymore now.
I took a warm shower to relax my muscles from the stress today, all these humans everywhere. They weren't even so many but I am just very sensible when it comes to people.
The thing with Cate got me a huge gay panic, I could still not stop thinking about her.
When I got out of the shower I felt so tired, so I made myself a tea and went to my bedroom.
I was still up after an hour of trying to sleep, unsuccessfully obviously, bc I was thinking of Cate. For example: Why did she do that? Was she like seriously flirting with me? I thought she had a husband and 3 kids?

It was just so confusing.

I made myself another tea, hoping that that will get me to sleep. However, it didn't. So I went out on my balcony like always when I couldn't sleep. I stepped outside and was once again met by the cold air, which surrounded me quickly and made my tensed and confused mind cool down.
It was like some sort of magic medicine, when I breathed it in it felt like roots would grow inside me and fill my body with tranquility and revival.