I let you go (Complete)

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He did loved me and he did everything he can for me, I remembered that day when we both were trying to escape at the base of hydra, in which we both were trapped. I was feeling so low that day, all my past memories, their brutal way of killing people and making me an assassin was all in front of my eyes, like a movie and for a minute I got dizzy, by those hard memories, when I felt a hand around my wrist and it was him, it was always him, standing with me and protecting me like a shield himself, vanished away.

Nat, you alright, let's just get out from here, its nothing important here though, he said while holding my hand.

I nodded and we began to start searching the way out, this base was a puzzle and I wasn't feeling well to solve it right now, my world I don't know why, whenever I heard a sound hydra becomes gloomy and I just can't feel anything, I just lose myself whenever this cold word crosses my mind or ears.

But he was always there to hold me back, his gentle touch and soft blue eyes were always my sources of calmness and serenity.

Look Nat, it's that way, when he said that, I heard a sound, the sound of alarm, stop I said, don't move, I think there is something, may be a bomb, I held his hand tightly and he can feel my hand becoming cold, this place is loaded with bombs, it can explode any minute, I said.

After waiting for some minutes, my body got relaxed as nothing exploded at all, I let my hand get free from his grip and move steps forward to check, if there is actually something at that place from where the the sound of alarm was coming or not when, he grabbed my hand from my back and said get in, and in a questioning look in my eyes I said what? get under the shield, his eyes were showing the worry for me, before I could take a step backward, the bomb exploded and a small scream came from my side but nothing really hurt at all, I opened my eyes, and it was terrifying for me I don't know I just felt a sharp pain in my body because of this scary feeling I don't know what it was but I was under his shield so close to him that I can even hear his deep yet cold breaths as well, my whole body got relaxed in one second when I saw him safe with me, holding shield in one and me with his other hand, I can see that he was terrified as  well. I just hugged him, I really want him to be mine, to be this close to me everyday, and to care for me like this his whole life, maybe I was self wish but the way Steve was there for me, the way he was worried more than me for me, the way he never put himself first, the way he was so right and generous, the way he was so honest and a kind man, I really want him to be mine, I know he loved me too, I know he really wanted to be this close to me as well, I know he always felt safe when I'm around and I know he wanted to see me happy and safe too, I know he did everything for me and I know that I hurt him.

This is life, it doesn't goes the way you want....