I let you go (Complete)

XII

Natasha...
I woke up to someone calling me, and when I looked up it was Bruce, Steve's hand was still cold, and it broke me whenever I feel him and the only feeling I could sense is coldness.
You have to go, I have operations to do, Bruce said to her.
He will be fine, isn't he? Natasha grabbed Bruce's hand and looked into his eyes, desperately.
Natasha, I will try my best honey, he replied softly, just leave him now, he said.
Don't ever say that, I'm not gonna leave him again, never, I'll be back she said while sobbing.
Bruce nodded.

After 3 hours, everyone has gathered again outside the ICU unit, waiting for Bruce to come up with a piece of positive news, Natasha was worried to death, Sam was sitting in a corner with Bucky who was numb as well, Clint and Stark were walking randomly in tension when Stark came towards Natasha and put a hand on her shoulder, he will be fine, don't cry like this, he said. Why do you care? Where were you when he needed you? He was in jail, he was in his bad mental state, he was crying whenever he felt like nobody is around him, he had sleepless nights, and he was losing his everything once again after he woke up from that damn cold ice, avengers, you, the positive image on people, Sam, Bucky and Me..... He was drowning, going deep down, everyone was ditching him, where were you? Tony, where? She yelled in pain and tears, to him. He moved an inch away and processed everything she said, and lower his head, he knew she was right but he was so devastated as well that he replied to her, so where were you when the winter soldier was choking him to death, you said you love him, then why you left him, you said you care about him, then why couldn't you understood him, you said you gonna stay by his side, then tell me why just why you left him alone in that house when you knew that he was injured already, why? He kneeled down crying, I don't wanna lose him, I knew it's my fault as well but I just want Steve back, he said in his sobs. It's on all of us, Sam said when Bucky looked at him. I'm sorry it's only my fault Bucky voice cracked as well if I just remembered him sooner if I just didn't shot him if I just didn't chock him, I don't deserve mercy he said while crying as well, stop this guy's Clint said, now ifs don't count what was meant to happen had happened, now just hope and pray that he will make it through and come back to us, I know it's not easy, his whole life was tough for him past few months were really hard for him but he's Steve Rogers he has defeated death once and I know my man, he is strong and I know him he doesn't care about his life or his own self but he loves us all and he's gonna make it for us Clint wiped a tear while saying this to everyone, so stop this all.

Bruce came back to them all after 5 hours, Clint was standing next to the ICU door, he looked at Bruce, and Bruce smiled he was gonna kill me though, I'm too tired as well he said, he will be conscious tomorrow, he is weak and vulnerable right now, I've inserted blood and some other necessary fluids to him, he will although need almost a month to recover properly since bullets and his injured foot was the big mess, he said.
Everyone just didn't believe what they heard and their nerves got to relax.
Can I see him, Natasha said.
You all can but one by one, remember he is not awake yet, he said, let me drink some water and close my eyes for a bit, he was shocked when Natasha hugged him and then everybody hugged Bruce, in a group circle, thanks so much, you owe me and all of us, Bruce, Natasha said with a smile on her face, he smiled back.

I'm sorry, I shouldn't have left you in the first place, I know you were pushing me away because you didn't want me to get hurt, but I was afraid of this all too, the things I said to you that doesn't mean anything at all, I really respect your loyalty towards me, I really admire your honesty towards the nation and our team and I really appreciate your kindness and love for me, Steve, she said while holding his hand sitting beside him, and feeling very warm blood running through his body now, his face was pale and weak so does his body, his muscles were relaxed and his foot was stitched up as well, she looked him softly, this is all because of me, I'm sorry Rogers, tears flowing through her eyes.

Nobody came in and everyone give Natasha the time she needed with Roger, she slept again sitting beside him, but she felt a sensation in her hand, it was not just a lifeless hand anymore, it has a light grip on her hand now, Natasha, a soft yet weak and dry voice called her and she knew this time who he was, She opened her eyes to see Steve awake still tiredness was seen on his face and he was in pain too, but she gave him a smile saying thanks, Steve.