I let you go (Complete)

IV

You always put me first, she thought while driving, Steve was still sleeping, he was tired from all this, his own best friend bucky didn't recognize him, tony whom he trusted the most was behaving like an enemy to him, now there was nothing but just again a  friendship relation between him and Nat, all the world think that he was a criminal because he was supporting a murderer, traitor in the eyes of states government.

While she was driving, she still had a grip on his hand, her mind was in the past when they destroyed the hydra lab at one mission, Steve saved him from the blast, she lost her consciousness, so she was sure, he rather than thinking about himself first, he saved her, he did that countless time, when they fought with Bucky, he caught his attention only to just divert his attention from me, when he was just going to shoot me, I was always thankful to him for always putting me first but I didn't know why I just left him like this, I let him go, I let him suffer alone, I choose tony's side, I was the one who ended our relationship. I did this all to him, he didn't deserve this all, we all just betray him like he was nothing important to any of us. I'm just wondering how just he endured this all..... Her mind was full of thoughts, that she didn't notice time and they were on their destination, it was a small farmhouse of Fury, he said that until he fixed things which needed to be fixed they have to stay there. She was driving for about 3 or more hours, she just slightly shakes Steve's hand, he was sleeping like a small kid, she whispered Steve, we reached home and shake his hand again, he just opened his eyes slightly, and said Nat! yeah we are here, get off from the car, I replied and he nodded.
My mind was speaking loudly that I should say him:
I wish I loved you better before...
But I couldn't he got off the car and I followed him.

It was a warm but small place for me, Steve was in the kitchen, he might be hungry, he was too quiet, like he is the most quite among us but not this much and with me never, but here we are he was too quiet, I went in the kitchen and knocked at the table, he turned back, his ocean eyes met mine, and I can see how miserable they were, my heart ached for him, he was the purest soul I have ever met and we all hurt him, he had a what look in his eyes, but didn't say out loud, you should freshen up first, I know how to make pancakes though, I will make that, just go and change first I have some clothes for you in that black bag, I pointed at the bag, I washed my hands and I'm fine, I can cook by myself, I slept for a while, you just go and rest, when the lunch will be ready I will call you, the no hatred in his eyes and a soft smile on his face shows me that he wasn't angry at all not at me nor at any one, he was just him a sweet Steve.....
My eyes land on his hands, you just washed these, they have cuts and bruises on them, you should first take care of them, you should just take care of your whole body. He just smiled, don't worry about me, I'm fine, he said, shut up Steve go and freshen up, I said, fine mam anything else, he said while going to the bedroom, there is only one he said while turning back to me, this is a small house only for Fury, old man, I replied with a smirk on my face.

I made pancakes, smoothies and some salad, whatever was in the fridge I added all that in it, I'm not a good chef like Steve but still, I tried.

He came back after a while, and was wearing just a white vest and blue jeans, Nat, where is the medicine box, he said, I have some cuts and bruises on my neck, chest, and back, he further explained, let me help you sit, I said. There were many some from fights back with Buckey and tony, some because of government agents torture and some were because of me, he never asked for help before but I was glad that I'm a useful person to him in any way while doing bandages on his fingers and one hand, applying ointments on some cuts on his neck, I said you are hot, and he turned back, I know he smirked, I just blushed I don't know why, no idiot, you have a temperature, you should rest more Steve you need it, eat the lunch and sleep, hmm he replied.

After finishing lunch, he said you go in the bedroom, I can sleep here on this couch, he said. No you have to sleep on the bed, you need it more, he shook his head in no and sat on the couch, I'm just tired, so I'm gonna sleep here, and he did, I just sighed and gave him a blanket and a pillow, it would be cold out here. He smiled when he took those things Thank you for everything Nat, I owe you now, he said. No, I replied, I always owed you. Yes, and don't bother that as a friend and a fellow avenger it is my duty. He said. When he said friend, my heart ached for a second, yeah that's what I said to him when we broke up before the fight between Bucky, Steve, and tony, but it was better for him, it was always for him, I just wanted to protect him, just the way he always does for me.

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