I let you go (Complete)

IX

Just tell me you love me, you love me, Steve, she whispers when he slept on her lap, still breathing heavily, she wasn't used to his this side and she just brushed his hair through her fingers the rest of the night. She was afraid of losing him, even though in her nightmares she has lost him so many times, but in reality, she didn't want to lose him for a minute, she knew he had gone through enough in his life so as she, now her only safe place and peace was him, she admired him when her train of thoughts stopped, how peacefully he was sleeping, rest well, she whispers.

The next morning they get to their quin jet and Steve wasn't in a very pleasant mood, because of the last night, he was scared, guilty and somewhat softer towards Natasha, she held his hand when they take off, it's gonna be alright Steve, she said and he nodded with a faint smile was on his face, he was lost, he didn't know why but Bucky, Peggy, War, the whole 1940's era was playing back in his mind, Natasha can see how badly he was holding back the tears in his eyes, the whole ride they both sat in silence but she didn't let go of his hand, she told him he is not alone.

As soon as they arrived in Russia and went to their secret place in a not very thick forest but they can't stay in hotels etc, because it was too risky to involve innocent people in anything they were already dying because of winter solider, Steve even didn't freshen up, and was starting to make a plan, Natasha who didn't sleep for the whole night was feeling a bit tired and she always felt sick in the cold breeze of Russia, she sat down on a couch in the lounge, when Steve heard a sigh, he turned back, are you alright? He said, yeah, I bit homesick, can I have a quick nap? She asked, sure he replied but we don't have the whole day, we should start our search soon, he said in a tired tone too, hmm she replied.
When Natasha slept, Steve got a quick look at the place, it has one washroom one bedroom, a lounge, and a kitchen, and gardens at back and front of the place, it was a small place but was enough for them, he went out and stretched his body, the breeze was so cold, and the forest was making the air more clean and harsh, the place was unusually cold. He just crossed the backyard gate and just go for a walk to clear his mind as well as to look near the forest, to check if anyone having an eye on them as soon as they arrive here, but he was only wearing a blue office shirt and blue jeans and the breeze was turning cold to ice-cold, he can feel his body shivers, he wasn't too far from home, when the sky was full of dark blue and black clouds, showing him that he should go back because the rain was going to start.
A thunderstorm and Natasha woke up, she just had a bad dream, and she was shivering as well when she looked around, Steve wasn't there, the house was a bit dark too, the rain was started and the amount of coldness in this area was making her hands and lips blue, she didn't know it was only the cold or the fear of losing him, but she just starts to roam around, calling his name, when she went to the backyard, she saw the garden door towards forest was open, God! Please take care of him, she whispered underneath her breath, the rain started so fast, but then she saw a figure, coming straight from the forest running as fast as he can, when he reached the backyard door, he saw her, get back in its too cold, you will get sick, he shouted because the voice of thunder and splashing water was loud, it's dark inside she said yelling as well, he closed the small barrier type door of garden separating it from the forest, and run towards her when he reached her full soaked in water, she was still standing there;
What? He said with a confused look, looking into her scared eyes.
Steve! She whispered and hugged him softly.
He can feel how cold she was as well.
Don't ever leave me, without telling me or just... She stopped and broke the hug.
What happened? Why you are so cold, he said and he gets a better look at her, he noticed she was still shivering and her lips and hands were looking colder, he grabbed her hand, and pull her close again, he kissed gently on her lips, not hurting or putting any pressure it was just to make her warm.
When she felt his lips on her, she once became shocked and was going to push him away, but she knew how badly she wanted him to be this close to her every day, she returned the kiss softly as well.
I'm here he broke it and said, I'm not leaving I'm going to be with you till the end, just as you are with me, you are not alone as well Nat, you can count on me and I'll be there for you. He said still hugging her, the rain was so hard, and so the wind, but she can feel his cold body was making her cold body warm, let's go inside, she said.
They never said lovely words to each other, nor do they want to do the things most people love each other for, they were so distant still so close, they talked through eyes and can understand each other thoughts and voices of hearts, they were soulmates but they didn't have a lust for anything at all they were just so soft with each other they didn't know that love can be this pure and elegant as well.