Battle Scars (bxb)

Chapter 3 - Tom & Jerry

I was sitting on my beanbag chair, "I will always love you" by Dolly Parton was playing and I was hugging the cover of the vinyl, staring ahead, still shocked. This just happened... I-I met my mate. But he wasn't just anybody, he wasn't just another omega or some stranger I hadn't met before... no, it was Sawyer Jones. He was popular, he was kind and very good looking... he could have anybody. Well, expect for Riley. Riley... who he wanted the most, but could never have. Riley, who was my luna and a very good friend, who used to date my ma-ate... my mate. 

And I hope life, will treat you kind
And I hope that you have all
That you ever dreamed of
Oh I do wish you joy
And I wish you happiness
But above all this
I wish you love
I love you
I will always love you

Dolly sang and I was in shock. I didn't even know if I liked the music, no actually, it was bad, but better than I had expected just not what I normally liked, but suddenly it held so much meaning to me, not even the words that she sang, that as well, but because Sawyer had held it in his hands. Because Sawyer had spoken to me while scanning that vinyl. Because Sawyer wanted to listen to it with me. Was this real life? Was this all just a strange dream? It felt like it and at the same time, a dark secret part of me hoped, that it wasn't. Because as uneasy and confused as I felt... I was also... happy? Excited maybe?? But why? 

"Because you are already falling for him, he is our mate after all and he is perfect, utterly perfect I say!" Ellie cheered and I had to give it to him, Sawyer was... h-he was perfect. But I wasn't. And he was human, so why in goddess's name had she paired us together? Recently all her matings seemed like a joke to her, hadn't they? Somebody needed to knock some sense into that woman and that pronto. But... even if this seemed impossible, that me and Sawyer would ever happen, that I was even allowed to pursue this and try it at least, since I could betray my luna I-.... I wasn't actually mad about this. Because Sawyer was amazing and I did not deserve somebody as great as him. 

"Honey I made some carrot cake do you want so-... what are you doing?" my dad asked, walking into my room after having knocked, my parents were always careful with my privacy, they respected it, I just hadn't heard it due to the music and me zooming out thanks to being utterly overwhelmed by this situation. I turned around, while now Dolly was singing 'It must be you', which really suited the situation and I just stared at my dad, who was looking at me suspiciously as I answered "Ah uhm n-nothing." 

"Really. You...are listening to Dolly Parton and you say that nothing is going on here? What happened?" he asked as he placed down the plate with some cake on it, sitting down next to me. My dad loved to bake, he also made my birthday cake this morning, so it was no surprise he had made a second one, but I was not hungry, no I could not even think about food right now. And of course he knew that something was up and I would have loved to tell him, my dad and I were very honest with each other, normally, but right now, I didn't know if that was the right thing to do. 

"Oh uhm I-... not much I just went to the record store t-that's... that's it" I said and my dad looked at me, waiting for me to crack, but Dolly thought she should maybe do that for me: 

It must be you that's always walking in my dreams
It must be you who'll always be right next to me
So when you find yourself alone
Just think of me and I'll be there
Must be you by my side the whole way through

Oh lord... I closed my eyes, already knowing that my smart father had to at least have an idea as to what this was about and I mean, I wanted him to know, I would have loved his advice on this, but it was just still so fresh, even me and Ellie couldn't yet believe it to be true, so how should we talk about something like that right now? I slowly opened my eyes and my dad had that knowing look on his face that all parents have, but a little less: ohhh tell me about him kind of vibe. But I was still getting ready for that conversation.