Battle Scars (bxb)

Chapter 9 - Blooming Rose

I was startled. First of all, I hadn't imagined Sawyer would come to my house. Secondly, the last thing I would have guessed that he would do was to... to hug me! He didn't yell at me, he didn't tell me to stay away from him, he didn't say that we should simply stay friends or that we would be ok if I would give him my math homework for the next few weeks, no. Sawyer h-he... he hugged me! It took me a while to register that but when I did and I felt how genuinely he just wanted to hold me, my heart started racing and I quickly lifted my arms, throwing them around his neck and hugging him back. And it was pure bliss! So much better than I would have expected to feel when getting hugged by my mate. 

My body was tingling and my stomach was tickling with butterflies in the best way possible. It was like I couldn't get enough of this! His scent, his touch, his breath and heartbeat that was rather fast, it was all so perfect and I felt so unbelievably happy, like this would be the best moment of my life and nothing could ever top this. I could die happily right now but I didn't want this to end, I wanted to stand like this forever and since I knew I couldn't have that, I just closed my eyes and enjoyed this, enjoyed how he was rubbing his hands over my back, leaning his head against my shoulder. He wanted to feel me close for whatever reason he could find, but it was alright, because I was happy. 

We stood like this for quite a while, I do not remember how long it actually was. But we lost ourselves and it didn't feel weird, it wasn't awkward after a while this just felt so right, so perfect and Sawyer must have felt something similar or else he would have pulled away a while ago, because he was holding on stronger than I was, mostly because I really wanted to give him the opportunity to pull away without feeling uncomfortable, because I was still sure he hated me, even if the hug suggested otherwise. We just stood like this and after what felt like ages and seconds at the same time, we finally pulled apart, looking at each other. The rain outside was now just a mere drizzle and when we looked at each other like that, both not knowing what was going on in the other's head, but somehow feeling so alright, we just kind of had to... grin. 

And we laughed, both of us. At how absurd and great and bad the situation was and that neither one of us had a clue what was going on, but maybe that could change soon, since Sawyer said, finally after we had stopped laughing, "Don't run away from me Lynton... I know you think you did something terrible, but you really didn't. And you still owe it to me to let me speak as well. So will you? Will you finally let me say something about.... about all of this? So I do not have to chase after you in the rain, call my ex to ask for your address and then sneak past that weird guard at the front of your gated community just so I can have you back?"

I looked at my pretty damn perfect mate and, even if I was deep down still terrified, I knew that he was right. I shouldn't be scared of my mate and his words, even if they could hurt me, I just had to trust him and let him speak, he had shown me just how far he would go for me to finally talk to him again. And I would also have to have a word with Pax about our security measurements, because if a mere human could sneak inside the pack... so could other people and one person or rather a monster came to my mind specifically... Jack. But I didn't want to think about him right now, no, I rather sighed, before nodding and opening the door a little wider. 

"Ok... do you want to come inside?" I asked and Sawyer smiled, before he nodded "Yes please!" I chuckled, letting him in and he stepped into my house, taking off his shoes and coat, before following me upstairs to my bedroom, where he sat down on my bed and I quickly hurried to get him a towel for his wet head and some tea so he wouldn't get sick, because humans did that sometimes and I couldn't bear it, if my mate was hurting because of me or at all actually! "You really didn't have to... but thank you" Sawyer smiled as I filled up a cup with the tea inside the kettle and gently took the towel that Sawyer had hung around his shoulders, carefully cleaning his face from the raindrops with it, while he blew onto his tea, looking at me.