The Journey to You | D.L.

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A/N: are you guys annoyed with these updates. Idk why but I have felt so inspired and have had time recently so.... lemme know!

I sat on the table in the slightly cold room and waited for what was about to happen.

"So Ms. Lovato I am going to need you to remove your pants and underwear and cover yourself with this. The doctor should be in shortly okay?" The nurse told me and asked.

"Okay. Thanks." I said feeling my anxiety rise.

I just sat there for a second and Nick was holding Beck. I did not want anyone near me. I knew they were going to have to do an exam and I was so afraid of how I would react.

"Baby what's wrong?" Nick asked wrapping an arm around me.

"I just... i don't know how I am going to react being touched. I'm actually fucking terrified." I confessed.

"I will be right by your side okay? I won't let anyone hurt you I promise." He kissed the top of my head.

I took off my clothes like she had told me and got up on the bed. I was holding Beck in hopes that he would calm me down. He didn't but he was cute.

When the doctor came in I gave him back to Nick and she started talking. "Alright Demetria, whats going on?"

"Ummm I was r-raped." I told her and she nodded her head.

"Oh I am so sorry sweetheart. So are we gonna do a checkup today then?" She asked and I nodded

"Okay I am going to need you to put your legs here in the stirrups." I did and she washed her hands and put in some gloves.

"I am going to use these few tools to look inside the vagina and use these swabs to get a sample and test you for anything."

I nodded and closed my eyes as she used one of the tools. I felt a few tears fall down my face and I looked up at Nick. He was right by my side like he said he would be. He took my hand and used his thumb to rub the back of it.

"Demetria it doesn't look like there is any tearing but there is a lot of swelling and irritation. I'm going to use the swan now to get a sample so we can test it." She told me and I took a deep breath as she did what she needed to do.

It felt like my body wasn't mine. It felt like I was a soulless shell walking around and my soul was floating outside of my body.

She eventually finished and had someone take the sample for testing. "It looks like you are in a lot of pain so I want to prescribe you some pain killers." She said and I shook my head.

"No thank you. I'll be fine. I don't do well with medication especially since I am about to start my other meds back up again." I told her and she nodded and wrote something down.

"Ok so now is the time when I have to ask you a few questions is that okay?" I nodded so she continued. "When did the sexual assault happen?"

"It happened 2 days ago." I told her and she was writing down some notes.

"So it looks pretty bad for 2 days ago. Do you know who raped you?" She asked and I nodded. "Would you be able to tell me who?" She asked and so looked up at Nick.

It was his dad so I didn't really want him to get in trouble. It was my fault for not making sure my doors were locked.

He looked at me and nodded rubbing my shoulder encouraging me to tell her.

"It was um... Paul Kevin Jonas Sr." I told her and she once again wrote something down.

"What did you do after he raped you?" She asked and I bit my lip.

"I came home and I found her. She was terrified and naked on our bed. I asked her if it was okay if I helped and she said yes so I took her to the bathroom. She said he had... you know... in her. So I helped clean her up as best as I could." Nick told her so I wouldn't have to.

"Okay. That was the right thing to do. How would you rate your pain on a scale of 1-10 the days of the event and following?"

"The day it happened was a 10. The day after was about an 8 and today probably a 6 and a half." I told her embarrassed.

"Ok. There is no need to be embarrassed here okay? We are here to help you, and we would NEVER judge you especially for something that wasn't your fault." She told me and I nodded.

There was a knock on the door and the nurse came back with the test results. "So you are negative for any STDs, and negative for pregnancy. What you need to do from here is recover. I recommend you go to therapy and try to work through everything that happened to you. Also you can have intercourse when you don't feel pain anymore, and you are mentally prepared. Many of my patients pushed themselves into it. You need to only do what you think is best for you. And I'm sure Nick here will do whatever he can to help you." She told me.

"Okay. Am I okay to go?" I asked her and she nodded and got up and left the room.

I sat there for a few minutes trying to recoup. I got off the table and put my clothes back on and we left.

There was paparazzi outside so Nick held Beckham close to him and wrapped his arm around me.

'Demi are you pregnant again?'

'Nick What is it like having a baby with a drug addict?'

'Have you relapsed?'

'How is being parents?'

'Demi have you heard the news?'

'What is it like knowing your father is out of jail?'

'Do you have a relationship with Patrick?'

The paparazzi fired questions at us and I almost threw up hearing the last few. Patrick was out of jail?

Nick put Beckham safely in the car seat and I sat in the passenger side and started crying. I felt like I couldn't breath.

"Just go somewhere please. Away from them!" I told Nick and he drove away to an empty parking lot miles away.