The Journey to You | D.L.

50.

"Demi. Dems. Demetria. Wake your ass up!" My sister woke me up.

"I'm up! Shit dude, what do you want?" I asked annoyed.

"Umm well your phone went off saying that you have a doctors appointment today at 10:00." She explained and I sat up remembering everything that happened last night.

"Okay thank you. I'm sorry for calling you. It was stupid of me to be so dramatic." I said.

"Oh my god, shut the fuck up." She said as she walked out of my room.

A few minutes later she walked back in with a sleepy Beck so I took him and cuddled with him for a little bit.

"Dada?" Beck asked me since Nick was normally here in the mornings.

"He is in the kitchen buddy!" Dallas said.

He crawled off of me and Dallas took him to see Nick. I got up and went and washed my face and brush my teeth.

Looking in the mirror I tried to see a tiny bump, but I didn't see one. It's okay since I'm only in the first trimester.

I put my hair in a high ponytail got dressed for the day. I put on some makeup to hoped hide the fact that I have been crying.

I walked downstairs and just ignored Nick was there. Beck wobbled over to me so I picked him up.

"We have to go bye bye soon so let's go get ready k?" I asked him and he just smiled at me.

I walked upstairs and got him dressed and brushed his hair and the few teeth he had. We went back downstairs and I was very out of breath. That's pregnancy for you.

"Hey D, does anyone know about the baby?" Dallas asked when she saw me.

"No. Please don't tell anyone yet. I mean you can tell your boyfriend who I have yet to meet but other than him." I asked her and she nodded.

"Of course babe, your secret is safe with me. Well will y'all be okay or should I stay until you leave?" She asked.

"You can go. I think we need to talk about some stuff. Thank you for everything, I love you!" I said and gave her a hug before she left.

"Dems I'm really sorry." Nick said and I shook my head. I walked over and put back in his playpen.

"Sorry doesn't cut it this time Nick. Do you even get why I am so upset?" I asked and he nodded.

"I do. But I'm not our dads. I would never hurt you or Beckham." He said.

"If you told me that yesterday morning I would believe you. But Nick... I am so scared of men. You will NEVER understand that. It doesn't matter who they are. But with you it was different. And you... I don't want that with you." I said as I got some water.

"I'm so sorry if I ever made you feel like that. It won't happen again I promise. Are you gonna eat something?" He asked.

"I'm not hungry." I said the simple sentence that has haunted me for years. "I'll pick something up for me and Beck on our way home."

"Back From where?" he asked and I sighed.

"My doctors appointment. You forgot." I stated obviously hurt.

Nick tried to come over and hug me but I flinched and backed away. I was embarrassed so I apologized and grabbed Beck and walked out before he had the chance to say anything.

When we got there, I walked inside with Beck and sat in the waiting room.

"Not How I pictured this going. I'm not supposed to be alone." I confessed to Beck since I knew he wouldn't understand me.